It's raining here.
I updated my userinfo today, and changed my layout. I quite like both of them. What do you think?
I'm dying my hair right now, too. I bleached several parts of it, a little while ago, so I was rocking out some blonde for a bit, and now those parts are going red. Although, the red is cheap dye and it's more of a dark pink, I'm still deciding whether or not I like it? Hmf.
Later on today, we're going trick or treating, drunk (naturally), in full costumes. I'm going to be Ziggy Stardust, which is very exciting and fun and bright. When I told one of my friends about it, they asked me who Ziggy Stardust was. I wanted to punch them. What a ridiculous question.
I can't get over these feelings of loneliness and despair. It's been a really rough week, and I'm a little scared. My depression has been re-awakened (did it ever leave?) and I've been on a pretty bad downhill slope. Suddenly, all I want to do is lie in bed and sleep the days away; the oblivion and mindlessness of sleep is a welcome escape from feeling numb and godawful. I'm aware it's really not very healthy, in the slightest, hence why I'm dragging myself out to go trick or treating with my friends.
Honestly, the one thing I'm holding on to right now, with a kind of sick desperation, is the boy that I love. But even that's a challenge. I discourage anyone from doing long distance, ever ever EVER. I love him, crazily, entirely, there's no question about it. But good gods, distance is hell.
I think I need to get the hell out of Jakarta, as soon as possible. Seven months until graduation. Here's to hoping I can survive until then.
I'm dying my hair right now, too. I bleached several parts of it, a little while ago, so I was rocking out some blonde for a bit, and now those parts are going red. Although, the red is cheap dye and it's more of a dark pink, I'm still deciding whether or not I like it? Hmf.
Later on today, we're going trick or treating, drunk (naturally), in full costumes. I'm going to be Ziggy Stardust, which is very exciting and fun and bright. When I told one of my friends about it, they asked me who Ziggy Stardust was. I wanted to punch them. What a ridiculous question.
I can't get over these feelings of loneliness and despair. It's been a really rough week, and I'm a little scared. My depression has been re-awakened (did it ever leave?) and I've been on a pretty bad downhill slope. Suddenly, all I want to do is lie in bed and sleep the days away; the oblivion and mindlessness of sleep is a welcome escape from feeling numb and godawful. I'm aware it's really not very healthy, in the slightest, hence why I'm dragging myself out to go trick or treating with my friends.
Honestly, the one thing I'm holding on to right now, with a kind of sick desperation, is the boy that I love. But even that's a challenge. I discourage anyone from doing long distance, ever ever EVER. I love him, crazily, entirely, there's no question about it. But good gods, distance is hell.
I think I need to get the hell out of Jakarta, as soon as possible. Seven months until graduation. Here's to hoping I can survive until then.