Love note...
How do you make a love song to yourself. How do you tell yourself to love yourself, and to love your own soul. I hear love songs from a man to a woman all the time. I hear love songs from a woman to a man every now and then. I ALWAYS hear songs about how the man fucked up. I rarely ever hear songs about how the girl fucked up, and if I do its turned into some type of a joke. Where is the justice? Do men just get shafted? What happens to the guy that never gets a break? Does he continue to live on doing what he was doing to get him where he is? How do you write a song, to tell that guy that he should keep on living? How do you write a song, letting someone know that you feel their pain? How can you make yourself, love yourself again? Is it possible?Is it true that a man can heal faster and easier that a woman. Is it true that a woman can do no wrong in a relationship? Is it just me, or does 90% of this population not understand male emotions? I don't need someone sitting there telling me it is going to be okay, but it helps. I don't need someone saying that someone else doesn't deserve me, but it helps. I need myself. I need to be able to look into the mirror and understand, that I am me. That I love myself no matter what. Is that possible? Could that dream be real? How do I live my life knowing that I might not love myself? I love my life, but do I love me? So many questions, but I see no answers in sight. I guess I have to sit here, and try to figure it out for myself. Maybe if I made less jokes, started acting more serious. Do you take me as a joke? You thought I wasn't serious? You couldn't tell how hurt I was? You couldn't see how hard I was crying inside? What will it take for you to understand? I want to give you the world, instead..you left me high and dry. You made this happen, you destroyed me, you made me cold. You took my soul, and now I have to work to get it back again. I'll just cover my eyes, put on that smile. Make it seem like everything is okay, till the day I find myself again. I shouldn't have to do this, but I have to because of you.