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this will be quick because i need to pack for vegas.
does anyone else get really, really specific desires? not in the form of rational goals or wishes, but more like backwards deja vu.
a mental photograph of a specific, possibly unexplainable future want.
that is the best way i can describe it.
i have many of these. here are a few:
1) i want to be walking down a street in an urban area at night, with some friends, including a tall guy who goes by his last name. we will be leaving a bar or a restaurant or a venue. and i want said tall guy to casually put his hand on the place where my neck meets my shoulder, sort of holding me at arms length, but in a caring, friendly way, in a way that lets me know he cares about me as an individual beyond just my role in the group dynamic.
2) i want to sit next to a little girl, about 6-8 years old, on a flight someday and talk to her about life and maybe draw with her for the length of the flight.
3) i want to go for a long run with two large dogs and then afterwards take a nap with them on a wooden floor in the sun
the biggest thing missing from my day-to-day life right now is affection.
does anyone else get really, really specific desires? not in the form of rational goals or wishes, but more like backwards deja vu.
a mental photograph of a specific, possibly unexplainable future want.
that is the best way i can describe it.
i have many of these. here are a few:
1) i want to be walking down a street in an urban area at night, with some friends, including a tall guy who goes by his last name. we will be leaving a bar or a restaurant or a venue. and i want said tall guy to casually put his hand on the place where my neck meets my shoulder, sort of holding me at arms length, but in a caring, friendly way, in a way that lets me know he cares about me as an individual beyond just my role in the group dynamic.
2) i want to sit next to a little girl, about 6-8 years old, on a flight someday and talk to her about life and maybe draw with her for the length of the flight.
3) i want to go for a long run with two large dogs and then afterwards take a nap with them on a wooden floor in the sun
the biggest thing missing from my day-to-day life right now is affection.