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man, school is HELL. ugh. i fucking hate it so much. the only reason i go to school is to see that one kid..otherwise i seriously would run off to san francisco or something. he is so adorable. he doesn't know me, and he doesn't know i look at him...thats the sad part. hes just there for me to look at. i hate it too that i don't have the guts to go up to him and say hi. i am just too scared that i will fuck it up and he will never talk to me again. you know first impression is very important. lol i've been thinking about this..maybe i will just stop crushing on him. i mean even if we do get to know each other, and even if he starts liking me back, what will happen? it will just be some stupid high school relationship that doesn't last more then a month. i think im just better off looking at him from far away. then, i could make up my own love story in my head with him in it. and we'd be in the most perfect relationship with him calling me his girl, and me calling him my sweetheart. and we'd always snuggle and he'd give me random kisses that will always make my day. ugh. i know..its just exactly like corny romance movies..but what can i say? i love those corny romances..i know i won't ever have that perfect relationship considering the fact that i am always the one that screws up in a relationship. damn this sucks. i wish i could find my prince..