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Wow, I had the worst few days of my life but it's all okay now. Lizzie forced me to get out of bed last night and we went to get the only thing that could fix me.... blueberry cheesecake!! That's my favorite fix me food in the world. We had a long talk about nothing in particualr and it was really nice. No matter whats going on she always knows what to say to make me smile. Thats why I lover her so much!! Thank you, Lizzie!! I can't tell you how much it meant to me that you cared enough to drag my sorry ass out of bed. I know that I can always count on you and I hope that you know you can always count on me. I love you!!
Tomorrow is the big day.... I'm going back to the doctor for some really fun tests. I'm so excited about this I can hardly wait. I don't think I'm going ot be bale to sleep tonight. Not really... I'm so nervous I could vomit!! I just know that I'm going ot be sitting on the table in nothing but that stupid sheet they give you and that hideous gown and a man is going to walk in the room. I do not feel very comfortable with a male doctor in general but especially not a male gynecologist. It's just making me really nervous.... Wish me luck!!
Good news I thik Joshy and I are working things out. He was really hurt by some things that I said and we all know that he is very touchy. I was sure that I had fucked things up before they even really got started but this afternoon we talked and I think life is good again. I was really upset that I had caused so much hurt in his heart. I didn't even realize that he was hurt because I was too caught up in my drama. I hate that.... but I am a girl and that usually happens. So Joshy, I'm sorry!! Let's start again from 4 days ago when we were happy!!
Have a great night everyone!!!
Tomorrow is the big day.... I'm going back to the doctor for some really fun tests. I'm so excited about this I can hardly wait. I don't think I'm going ot be bale to sleep tonight. Not really... I'm so nervous I could vomit!! I just know that I'm going ot be sitting on the table in nothing but that stupid sheet they give you and that hideous gown and a man is going to walk in the room. I do not feel very comfortable with a male doctor in general but especially not a male gynecologist. It's just making me really nervous.... Wish me luck!!
Good news I thik Joshy and I are working things out. He was really hurt by some things that I said and we all know that he is very touchy. I was sure that I had fucked things up before they even really got started but this afternoon we talked and I think life is good again. I was really upset that I had caused so much hurt in his heart. I didn't even realize that he was hurt because I was too caught up in my drama. I hate that.... but I am a girl and that usually happens. So Joshy, I'm sorry!! Let's start again from 4 days ago when we were happy!!
Have a great night everyone!!!