There comes a time in everyone's life....
that you get your heart broken. This past few weeks have been mine. It's a shame when someone changes their whole life just to be with the one person that they love, and that other person does absoultely nothing to show apprecciation. I happen to think that I was/am a DAMN good person, and did my best to be a wonderful girlfriend. OBVOUSLY this isn't enough, and that's sad. I can' even begin to explain how I feel right now, but it's definatley not good. If you don't want to listen to me rant and rave, then don't read this. I just don't know how else to get all my feelings out. I could call my 'friends', but those are in short supply now, and that's totally my fault, and I'm aware. It's just crazy to think of how I"ve changed to try to make a realtionship work for a fucking dude. I'm soooo not the girl who changes everything for a boy, and this time I did it, and it got me burned... BAD. I was finally ready to be in a longterm relationship. I was ready to give it my all, and I just got my heart broken, AGAIN. I just don't understand. Britni, baby... THIS is why I tell you not to get into relationships. THEY SUCK. You'd do ANYTHING for a guy, and what do they do in return? Break your heart. I would say I'm in serious need of some girls nights out... but I don't get invited anymore, because I've fucked over EVERYONE who's ever tried to be my friend, and I'm sorry. I just thought he was worth it, but now I know it definately wasn't. I've been broken up with before, and broken MANY hearts, it's just this time it was REAL. I really wanted to change, and I wanted to be good to him, and that didn't work. Maybe I should just go back to being a heartbreaker, because those guys stayed with me. Loved me even, and I just treated them like shit. Maybe that's how I need to be again. I don't know. I'm just confused, I guess. I'm not ready to date again. I don't want to be single for like the first time in my WHOLE life. It just sucks that when I finally feel like this, I do stupid shit to fuck it all up. Anyway, I guess I"ll stop bitching now. Feel free to comment, call me, etc.
P.S. Britney Spears is stupid.
P.S. Britney Spears is stupid.