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It's amazing what a year makes. Karen's babies are a year. LM's baby will a year pretty soon.
Angelina moved into Linden almost a year ago. We bought our house in the last year.
The reason i started this post with those markings of a year. Is because the other thing that was a year on Rh was my going to the doctor to ttc.
I can't believe I've been off b/c for a year.
I can believe I've been off anti-depressents for a year. My weight definitely indicates it as my inclination to panic/manic/anxiety attacks.
I think my doctor hasn't been as concerned because the attitude/face I put on to him was
'if it happens it happens' 'i want to get pregnant but i'm not making myself crazy'
when in truth 'i'm making myself semi-batty'
I'm really for my own mental health trying to see the whole ttc from a health/medical end. ie when my body is ready type thing.
because I honestly believe if I look at it from a more frum perspective I will beat myself up for all that I don't do and all the places that I feel a fall short.
that's not to say I can't improve my actions, but I think certain things while I respect them if I truly own them right now as to why i'm still ttc, I think will cause me more heartache and put a strain on my marriage, which we're finally bridging (wohooo yeah :D)
yeah for shalom bayis and a less crazy wife.
then again with how scary things are financially I'd rahter be in the ttc place than going OMG how in the world are we going to afford a kid
shrug
Angelina moved into Linden almost a year ago. We bought our house in the last year.
The reason i started this post with those markings of a year. Is because the other thing that was a year on Rh was my going to the doctor to ttc.
I can't believe I've been off b/c for a year.
I can believe I've been off anti-depressents for a year. My weight definitely indicates it as my inclination to panic/manic/anxiety attacks.
I think my doctor hasn't been as concerned because the attitude/face I put on to him was
'if it happens it happens' 'i want to get pregnant but i'm not making myself crazy'
when in truth 'i'm making myself semi-batty'
I'm really for my own mental health trying to see the whole ttc from a health/medical end. ie when my body is ready type thing.
because I honestly believe if I look at it from a more frum perspective I will beat myself up for all that I don't do and all the places that I feel a fall short.
that's not to say I can't improve my actions, but I think certain things while I respect them if I truly own them right now as to why i'm still ttc, I think will cause me more heartache and put a strain on my marriage, which we're finally bridging (wohooo yeah :D)
yeah for shalom bayis and a less crazy wife.
then again with how scary things are financially I'd rahter be in the ttc place than going OMG how in the world are we going to afford a kid
shrug