Pysche!
I'm going to Europa manana! Five in the morning wake up call to board a plane for 13 hours to land in Germany. Extremly exited, finishing up packing but letting the suitcase sit and me not think about it then as I continue living my life I will notice things I need to squeeze in there. As learned from Japan, pack light but consistently. If anything I'll buy the crap there, then it'll have street cred too.
I got sick from the boys so sniffle sniffle, at least I don't have to work tomorrow. In fact, a lot of sleeping on an airplane might do me good although recycled air not so much. I've gotta crash course on some linguajes. I know most people, especially in the areas we'll be frequenting, speak enough English but I like to take phrases and words just as much like souvenirs.
Kam-sah-hap-ni-dah.
Tinge in my spine, spring in my step, insaitiable wanderlust, seizes again.
I'm even more excited to walk the streets of Paris than visit the arc de triomph. I hope I can scrounge up some good French music too, maybe even find a real MC Solaar disco compacto.
I don't know how else to address this but I am aware that I need to become more efficient with my words, especially in speaking. Language is a tricky thing to compose and since the definitions and interpretations of words depend on the perception of the speaker and listener there are volumes of meaning and intention behind a singularity. I am aware of what I expect in myself linguisticly but the connection seems to fail between what my hands can accomplish verses the words that emit from my mouth. Do you understand the words that are coming out of my mouth? Yes, but they are frequently miscontrude.
There's a part of me that wants to become gulible again. But in the point that I immedietly trust what people tell me. I'm not happy with my own doubts spurred by my being burned. Its painful and hard to hold your heart to throb openly but I want to put full faith in everyone I meet, see the best in everyone. I am still much the middle man but cynicism is becoming too much. Buddah says right mind, right thought. I think therefore I am, I think therefore it is.
Examining how I've settled here I thought randomly of...blanking on his name...but the pyramid of self actualization. The basis being if you are without food, shelter, safety that you cannot become self actualized. You are living in a primitive mind by surviving and are unable to be aware of yourself - whether I buy that or not - there is some credit to it. I feel I have the ability to be more myself now that I am in control of my safety, shelter, food, sustenance, however there is a limit. I know and imagine the perfect person that I want to be, or become if I am that lucky. I want to be strong. Have the ability to support myself and know my own limits while being wholly there to sacrifice for others; clever enough to find a way without forsaking anyone. Articulate, intelligent, and progressive but empathetic to plight. I want to be confident in my accompliments but inherently modest. I know what else I want and what I will do/be. I honestly believe that if you labor hard enough, deligently enough, that you can accomplish what you do.
Universal traveller.
I miss everyone already. Hold them close. Recreate their likness in my mind.
LOVE!
I got sick from the boys so sniffle sniffle, at least I don't have to work tomorrow. In fact, a lot of sleeping on an airplane might do me good although recycled air not so much. I've gotta crash course on some linguajes. I know most people, especially in the areas we'll be frequenting, speak enough English but I like to take phrases and words just as much like souvenirs.
Kam-sah-hap-ni-dah.
Tinge in my spine, spring in my step, insaitiable wanderlust, seizes again.
I'm even more excited to walk the streets of Paris than visit the arc de triomph. I hope I can scrounge up some good French music too, maybe even find a real MC Solaar disco compacto.
I don't know how else to address this but I am aware that I need to become more efficient with my words, especially in speaking. Language is a tricky thing to compose and since the definitions and interpretations of words depend on the perception of the speaker and listener there are volumes of meaning and intention behind a singularity. I am aware of what I expect in myself linguisticly but the connection seems to fail between what my hands can accomplish verses the words that emit from my mouth. Do you understand the words that are coming out of my mouth? Yes, but they are frequently miscontrude.
There's a part of me that wants to become gulible again. But in the point that I immedietly trust what people tell me. I'm not happy with my own doubts spurred by my being burned. Its painful and hard to hold your heart to throb openly but I want to put full faith in everyone I meet, see the best in everyone. I am still much the middle man but cynicism is becoming too much. Buddah says right mind, right thought. I think therefore I am, I think therefore it is.
Examining how I've settled here I thought randomly of...blanking on his name...but the pyramid of self actualization. The basis being if you are without food, shelter, safety that you cannot become self actualized. You are living in a primitive mind by surviving and are unable to be aware of yourself - whether I buy that or not - there is some credit to it. I feel I have the ability to be more myself now that I am in control of my safety, shelter, food, sustenance, however there is a limit. I know and imagine the perfect person that I want to be, or become if I am that lucky. I want to be strong. Have the ability to support myself and know my own limits while being wholly there to sacrifice for others; clever enough to find a way without forsaking anyone. Articulate, intelligent, and progressive but empathetic to plight. I want to be confident in my accompliments but inherently modest. I know what else I want and what I will do/be. I honestly believe that if you labor hard enough, deligently enough, that you can accomplish what you do.
Universal traveller.
I miss everyone already. Hold them close. Recreate their likness in my mind.
LOVE!