day off
I called in sick today, for the first time. Yesterday was horrible, I couldn't get rid of my headache at all, plus throatache and blocked nose. At night I couldn't sleep because I was breathing through my mouth which became too dry and then my throat hurt again - vicious circle. Today I feel better, the pain killer I took this morning helped almost immediately (the paracetamol I took yesterday didn't do anything). my lovely boyfriend came by at 10am before going to work and brought some food I had asked for but hadn't expected before tonight. he brought fresh bread, fruit and berries, ginger and lemons. very sweet. I called the sick line at 4:30am because I wasn't able to sleep anyway and thought I might as well do it that early, it's automated in any case. In addition, I have an unrelated toothache and I really need to do sth about this asap. It's not good that I am afraid of the Irish health system, hardly anybody I know trusts doctors here plus the costs are extortionate.
Because of the headache I wasn't able to read more than 30 pages in Steppenwolf yesterday but I read a bit more this morning, ate the rest of yesterday's miso soup and am now researching my studies which will start in about 2 months. I am very excited and I am also aware that there is a lot of work involved and that working full-time and studying full-time is somewhat an illusion. I am now seriously thinking about giving up my job and moving countries, to be able to concentrate on my studies. My boyfriend likes the idea but there are certain factors that need to be taken into account:
1. he needs a full-time job.
2. if we move to Germany (I am tending to Berlin atm, but any major city would be ok, except Munich) he needs to improve his English rapidly as he doesn't speak a word of German and his only chances to get a job is to be somewhat bilingual English/French.
3. I would only take a part-time job and wouldn't really mind what I'd do. I have enough savings at the moment, to live with a part-time job for a few months, half a year.
4. his family has an apartment in Paris which could come in handy, but finding a job in France is even more difficult than finding one in Germany, I think, and he's not a big fan of Paris.
5. I need to get away from this place by the end of the year but cannot go before beginning of November because of my relocation package.
so, just now I am gathering info on my studies, literature etc, looking on amazon for cheap books, and for online university material I could use. (lots of material on Norbert Elias and Pierre Bourdieu) I wish I would have access to a better library here, the public library is quite limited in its material and as far as I know I cannot use the university library without a paid pass. So, I am dreaming a bit about going back to live in my hometown or Berlin for a few months to use the libraries there and live cheaply and happily. However, my boyfriend wouldn't be so happy about this and it might be more logical to find a job for him and move with him at the same time. Although I won't be able to stay here for much longer, I really can hardly stand it anymore. I stopped drinking alcohol because of my preparation for the detox and leisure activities not involving alcohol are quite hard to find...not that I went out a lot before.
Because of the headache I wasn't able to read more than 30 pages in Steppenwolf yesterday but I read a bit more this morning, ate the rest of yesterday's miso soup and am now researching my studies which will start in about 2 months. I am very excited and I am also aware that there is a lot of work involved and that working full-time and studying full-time is somewhat an illusion. I am now seriously thinking about giving up my job and moving countries, to be able to concentrate on my studies. My boyfriend likes the idea but there are certain factors that need to be taken into account:
1. he needs a full-time job.
2. if we move to Germany (I am tending to Berlin atm, but any major city would be ok, except Munich) he needs to improve his English rapidly as he doesn't speak a word of German and his only chances to get a job is to be somewhat bilingual English/French.
3. I would only take a part-time job and wouldn't really mind what I'd do. I have enough savings at the moment, to live with a part-time job for a few months, half a year.
4. his family has an apartment in Paris which could come in handy, but finding a job in France is even more difficult than finding one in Germany, I think, and he's not a big fan of Paris.
5. I need to get away from this place by the end of the year but cannot go before beginning of November because of my relocation package.
so, just now I am gathering info on my studies, literature etc, looking on amazon for cheap books, and for online university material I could use. (lots of material on Norbert Elias and Pierre Bourdieu) I wish I would have access to a better library here, the public library is quite limited in its material and as far as I know I cannot use the university library without a paid pass. So, I am dreaming a bit about going back to live in my hometown or Berlin for a few months to use the libraries there and live cheaply and happily. However, my boyfriend wouldn't be so happy about this and it might be more logical to find a job for him and move with him at the same time. Although I won't be able to stay here for much longer, I really can hardly stand it anymore. I stopped drinking alcohol because of my preparation for the detox and leisure activities not involving alcohol are quite hard to find...not that I went out a lot before.