fuckfuckfuck
Many advise me to work less. I should ask for specific days off, but this makes me feel guilty since I can really work any old time.
It's clear I'm going slowly (quickly?) insane. Acting like a "fucktard" while I'm working. Am I indignant? Yes. Perhaps that's because I never get the schedule I ask for... and only because I'm trying to make things convenient for everyone.
I want to do more with my life than this. It is clear to me that I can't keep going down this path. BUT I NEED THE MONEY. And I LIKE MY JOB, i really do, I just can't seem to stop from complaining when I'm there.
I wrack my brain trying to expunge my own egotism. All I really need is some time to figure out my shit... it seems like that will be my undoing.
Making a LiveJournal post is an obvious cry for sympathy. but fuck it, sympathy is what i want, i guess. If you have any left, I could use some over here.
It's clear I'm going slowly (quickly?) insane. Acting like a "fucktard" while I'm working. Am I indignant? Yes. Perhaps that's because I never get the schedule I ask for... and only because I'm trying to make things convenient for everyone.
I want to do more with my life than this. It is clear to me that I can't keep going down this path. BUT I NEED THE MONEY. And I LIKE MY JOB, i really do, I just can't seem to stop from complaining when I'm there.
I wrack my brain trying to expunge my own egotism. All I really need is some time to figure out my shit... it seems like that will be my undoing.
Making a LiveJournal post is an obvious cry for sympathy. but fuck it, sympathy is what i want, i guess. If you have any left, I could use some over here.