the curious incident of Gardener in the night-time
i knew it
i knew that if no one took curious incident last semester as i'd suggested, gardener would end up with it. i wish i'd made chris take it. i wish I'D taken it even though i'm a girl.
and now it's too late and all i can say is that i knew that Gardener would do extremely well with the piece, because he's had experience with that type of role and because he's just good all around.
but
he didn't perform it as i'd imagined it and therefore i think he deserved the two at ASU. some of you have asked if i didn't imagine it the way he performed it how did i imagine it then? it's hard to explain but
1) the main character just would have been more autistic. there should have been more blatant avoidance of eye contact. he should have rocked back and forth and hmmm what was the phrase? "made moaning?" when he was upset. he should have had less emotion or at least have the emotions be less controlled. maybe i'm mistaken...i haven't gotten to disorders in psych yet but it seems to me that if an autistic person were to smile they would do it without knowing it, or strangely, or something that tells the people around them that they aren't normal when it comes to emotions.
2)the other characters would have been either emotionless or over the top. Gardener's seemed to fall somewhere between these and that didn't work for me - too ambiguous and flat. they could have feasibly showed no emotion at all because the main character can't recognize emotion and it would play no part in his understanding and rememberance of others. or the other characters should have shown the other side of the emotion coin. their emotions should have been so extreme and distorted that they would be hard to read, because for the main character they ARE hard to read. or if neither of these works he could have at least made the father and neighbor more real. they are shadows in his piece and like i said that's ambiguous.
and of course this is just my perception. it's been proven time and again that i am often the only one who thinks the way i do. it's kind of lonely....but that's what an LJ is for - perceptions and ideas and emotions.
i knew that if no one took curious incident last semester as i'd suggested, gardener would end up with it. i wish i'd made chris take it. i wish I'D taken it even though i'm a girl.
and now it's too late and all i can say is that i knew that Gardener would do extremely well with the piece, because he's had experience with that type of role and because he's just good all around.
but
he didn't perform it as i'd imagined it and therefore i think he deserved the two at ASU. some of you have asked if i didn't imagine it the way he performed it how did i imagine it then? it's hard to explain but
1) the main character just would have been more autistic. there should have been more blatant avoidance of eye contact. he should have rocked back and forth and hmmm what was the phrase? "made moaning?" when he was upset. he should have had less emotion or at least have the emotions be less controlled. maybe i'm mistaken...i haven't gotten to disorders in psych yet but it seems to me that if an autistic person were to smile they would do it without knowing it, or strangely, or something that tells the people around them that they aren't normal when it comes to emotions.
2)the other characters would have been either emotionless or over the top. Gardener's seemed to fall somewhere between these and that didn't work for me - too ambiguous and flat. they could have feasibly showed no emotion at all because the main character can't recognize emotion and it would play no part in his understanding and rememberance of others. or the other characters should have shown the other side of the emotion coin. their emotions should have been so extreme and distorted that they would be hard to read, because for the main character they ARE hard to read. or if neither of these works he could have at least made the father and neighbor more real. they are shadows in his piece and like i said that's ambiguous.
and of course this is just my perception. it's been proven time and again that i am often the only one who thinks the way i do. it's kind of lonely....but that's what an LJ is for - perceptions and ideas and emotions.