It's been a long time since I was last here, as usual. This is not going to be a happy post since I am so tired of putting on a brave face for people and saying I'm fine when I'm really, really not. Essentially I think I have always been the type of person that no one really notices. I blend into whatever background there is - I am not special or ( Read more... )

Hello! I've been a tad absent from LJ for a while. I did go away to Malta for a week though, so yeah.

( Have a holiday picspam! )

I went to see My Passion last nighttt ♥ My pretty golden boys, lol. Halloween was black body paint. New album, new tour and it's gold body paint. Sparkly and sexy. WIN. Also far less messy than black. I got a *I heart you* from John Be and the fangirl in me went a tad SQUEEEEEEE. Lol. Andy their tour manager also said I won because I was wearing ( Read more... )

My mother. She has a major op and is told not to drive for four weeks. It's been three weeks, but now she intends to drive all the way to Nottingham tomorrow [the best part of four hours both ways] and will not listen to me when I say I don't think she should ( Read more... )

My week in bulletpoints. Because I am tired. And a BIG LAZE ( Read more... )

This was meant to be a totally happy Post-Christmas post, full of ramblings about presents and stuff ( Read more... )

Well the phoneline is FINALLY fixed. Can't believe it took two weeks. Sky and BT clearly do not communicate well at all. It took the boy who came yesterday three and half HOURS to put in a new socket and connection to the line outside. I forgot how much I rely on le interweb ( Read more... )

Have suffered a quiet yet acute crisis this week. I don't even know what caused it really.. or even how to describe how I was feeling. I still feel a little odd. I guess it comes down to a massive wave of loneliness combined with a vague realisation of how much progress I haven't made this year. And feeling completely useless RE singing and guitar ( Read more... )

Still missed ♥

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Depressing post was depressing. The day after I wrote my last entry I got to work and Donna asked me if I was okay. I nearly burst into tears. I'm not sure what's worse, bottling the pain up or realising I was bottling it up and starting to let it out... I haven't quite unbottled it completely yet. I'm a bit scared, cos the inside of my head is ( Read more... )