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i have to come to realize that there are a lot of people out there who hate me. more than there should be. i can count at least six i know for sure, possibly more.
is there something wrong with me? am i a terrible friend?
i must be to have that many people feel that way.
i used to get by just knowing that i hadn't done anything wrong and it had to be them being irrational. but i just don't know anymore. how can so many people feel that way?
i hate everything about myself. i hate myself for being honest. i hate myself for standing up for myself. i hate myself for not being a afraid to say no. i hate myself for not being a push over. i hate myself for not being the person everyone says is so nice. i hate myself for being so blunt. i hate myself for being a terrible friend. i hate myself for trying to stand for people i care about.
i hate hate hate myself.
is there something wrong with me? am i a terrible friend?
i must be to have that many people feel that way.
i used to get by just knowing that i hadn't done anything wrong and it had to be them being irrational. but i just don't know anymore. how can so many people feel that way?
i hate everything about myself. i hate myself for being honest. i hate myself for standing up for myself. i hate myself for not being a afraid to say no. i hate myself for not being a push over. i hate myself for not being the person everyone says is so nice. i hate myself for being so blunt. i hate myself for being a terrible friend. i hate myself for trying to stand for people i care about.
i hate hate hate myself.