[ONESHOT] I'm So Sorry But I Love You
Pairing: GDYB, G-Top
Genre: Angst, Romance
Raring: PG-13
Summary: Your beauty, your warmth. Your ugliness, your cold eyes. I'm still in love with you. You, the one who pushed me into the darkness of your love.
A/N: I just wanted to write it and it's not edited. There will be a lot of errors. :/
Standing on the edge.
Thinking.
How could I be so blind? So blinded by your beauty, the attention I received, the warmth I felt from you ... From your eyes, your lips, your heart. Why? Why was I so blind and did not see who you really were. The ugliness in your beauty, your attention that wasn't only to me, your coldness. Baby, tell me ... Had it always been like this? Was I really the only one who couldn't see it? Tell me. Because I don't know. I. I. I.
Flashback
I opened the door quietly and walked tiredly inside our apartment in Japan. I was so tired, so exhausted. Did so much work for the new songs and the most I wanted to do was to take a hot shower and to sleep, crawling into my warm bed. Closing the door behind me, I walked into the quiet apartment. It was not so late and nobody would be home. Daesung and Seungri have just returned to Seoul, Seunghyun was doing some stuff, and Jiyong ... I smiled slightly. Poor Ji, he was certainly working to death on the new songs and clothes. Ah, what had I missed him. Sighing, I put my keys on the table as a sound caught my attention. I stepped quietly towards it as the sounds became clearer. With a rapidly beating heart, I opened the door and blinked.
Blinked like that day.
I bit my lip nervously as I could not look up. Never would I have dared to have someone as beautiful as you have as a best friend. Never would I have thought to tell you now that I want you more than ... A friend ... God, I can not even think about it, how can I open my mouth and tell it to you?
"Ji ..." I whispered and smiled slightly when you looked at me smiling.
"What, Bae?"
"I ..."
"Yeah ..."
"I love you."
As if a huge weight got off my shoulder, I sighed and looked at you waiting for your reaction. First, your face was normal, a small frown on your forehead and calmly, quietly you finally smiled and sighed. "I... Am happy. I... Oh, Bae..." You whispered smiling making me blink because the warm glow I saw in your eyes. Happily, I took you in my arms and hugged you tightly. You, my best/boyfriend. God, why am I so happy? He is ... Mine, forever.
Forever.
Right.
My mouth was as open as I eyed the two in the room. I saw nothing. Heard only the moaning and muttering. Heard only that. Saw nothing. Time stood still. I stood still. My heart stopped. Breathing became difficult. I began to sweat as I couldn't stop watching them. I watched the two in bed, I watched you, I watched you moaning under another man, I watched you how you threw away everything we had. I watched ... My love, my best friend, my boyfriend, my soulmate, my ... Jiyong and my hyung, Seunghyun. Together. In bed.
Before you had discovered me, I closed the door slightly and quietly ran away from the apartment.
Ran away.
That was the stupidest thing I did until now. I ran away from everything. From you. From love. From everything. Driving my car through the streets of Japan. Driving to the direction of a light that had me in his spell. Reaching the edge of everything. And finally. The emptiness finally welcomed me into his arms. Welcome emptiness. Bye Jiyong.
Bye my love.
Thank you.
I'm so sorry but...
I love you.
...I still do.
Genre: Angst, Romance
Raring: PG-13
Summary: Your beauty, your warmth. Your ugliness, your cold eyes. I'm still in love with you. You, the one who pushed me into the darkness of your love.
A/N: I just wanted to write it and it's not edited. There will be a lot of errors. :/
Standing on the edge.
Thinking.
How could I be so blind? So blinded by your beauty, the attention I received, the warmth I felt from you ... From your eyes, your lips, your heart. Why? Why was I so blind and did not see who you really were. The ugliness in your beauty, your attention that wasn't only to me, your coldness. Baby, tell me ... Had it always been like this? Was I really the only one who couldn't see it? Tell me. Because I don't know. I. I. I.
Flashback
I opened the door quietly and walked tiredly inside our apartment in Japan. I was so tired, so exhausted. Did so much work for the new songs and the most I wanted to do was to take a hot shower and to sleep, crawling into my warm bed. Closing the door behind me, I walked into the quiet apartment. It was not so late and nobody would be home. Daesung and Seungri have just returned to Seoul, Seunghyun was doing some stuff, and Jiyong ... I smiled slightly. Poor Ji, he was certainly working to death on the new songs and clothes. Ah, what had I missed him. Sighing, I put my keys on the table as a sound caught my attention. I stepped quietly towards it as the sounds became clearer. With a rapidly beating heart, I opened the door and blinked.
Blinked like that day.
I bit my lip nervously as I could not look up. Never would I have dared to have someone as beautiful as you have as a best friend. Never would I have thought to tell you now that I want you more than ... A friend ... God, I can not even think about it, how can I open my mouth and tell it to you?
"Ji ..." I whispered and smiled slightly when you looked at me smiling.
"What, Bae?"
"I ..."
"Yeah ..."
"I love you."
As if a huge weight got off my shoulder, I sighed and looked at you waiting for your reaction. First, your face was normal, a small frown on your forehead and calmly, quietly you finally smiled and sighed. "I... Am happy. I... Oh, Bae..." You whispered smiling making me blink because the warm glow I saw in your eyes. Happily, I took you in my arms and hugged you tightly. You, my best/boyfriend. God, why am I so happy? He is ... Mine, forever.
Forever.
Right.
My mouth was as open as I eyed the two in the room. I saw nothing. Heard only the moaning and muttering. Heard only that. Saw nothing. Time stood still. I stood still. My heart stopped. Breathing became difficult. I began to sweat as I couldn't stop watching them. I watched the two in bed, I watched you, I watched you moaning under another man, I watched you how you threw away everything we had. I watched ... My love, my best friend, my boyfriend, my soulmate, my ... Jiyong and my hyung, Seunghyun. Together. In bed.
Before you had discovered me, I closed the door slightly and quietly ran away from the apartment.
Ran away.
That was the stupidest thing I did until now. I ran away from everything. From you. From love. From everything. Driving my car through the streets of Japan. Driving to the direction of a light that had me in his spell. Reaching the edge of everything. And finally. The emptiness finally welcomed me into his arms. Welcome emptiness. Bye Jiyong.
Bye my love.
Thank you.
I'm so sorry but...
I love you.
...I still do.