[ONESHOT] Too Late
Title: Too Late
Pairing: GDYB
Genre: Angst, Romance
Rating: PG
Summary: Sometimes… love alone is just is not enough.
Sometimes love alone is just is not enough. Sometimes to love someone is not enough to live with it.
How much time had passed?
Too much.
I had not seen you for so long. You had changed. The wrinkles that you had on your face made you look older. I imagined our meeting in my head a thousand times, but it was different. So different that it seemed almost a dream but this was our reality.
I walked over and looked at you. Your mouth was open and you looked with ameze at me. What were you thinking? I sometimes wonder. I still don’t know .. but if you had told. Then I would not wonder if your heart was beating so fast as mine that time.
I never thought I'd see you again. But there was you, with my friends. They asked me if we knew each other. But when you looked at me, I thought the same, I know you too well. And we sat there, opposite each other, looking searchingly at each other. And every time you looked at me, I forgot to breathe, so then I looked away and tried to breath again. Carefully not to show it. I did not show it, didn’t show how much influence you had on me. Still had on me.
But that was it...
I trembled all over my body while I drank and I tried to still my hand as possible. I looked and saw you looking at me. You looked at me so deeply. You did not smile, so were you telling me more. It took too long. I looked away as the tension was gone. Time did not pass. But I .. I could sit an eternity here. I did not think it was over. I was afraid that now I have you back, ill lose you back. Like always.
Kiss me.
Hold me and let me go.
Please ...
You sighed and moved closer. You opened your lips, but closed them again and looked at me. I read so much into them. The regret, missing, the lust, the love. But you did not say anything. Your mouth rambled and you looked at me pleadingly.
It does not matter.
You told me enough.
It was the farewell of the evening. To everyone, except me, you had already said goodbye. You looked at me, pierced my soul and kissed me gently on my cheek. You went a bit back and looked at me again, again leaned forward and kissed me again. On my other cheek. You sighed and pulled back. But you did not let go of my hand, I gently pulled it off. And then I saw it .. in a flash…
Fear.
You were scared and I could not bear that. The next time I saw you, you looked at me, barely. You saw me, and with clenched lips you came up to me. Gave me a hand and left. Everyone looked at me strangely. but that second one we had eye contact told me enough. You ran away.
Coward.
I cried enough because of you. Begged enough to please God if you will come back. I'm sick of your dreams, a world made for just us two. I'm tired of talking about you because I get so tired of it.
It's over and this time I mean it.
Sure you will sometimes come back, but I will push you off harder from me because you don’t make me happy like you used to. You’re afraid, baby. You don’t want to be in this relationship like it used to be, cause you’re afraid of others, of what the other might think if they found out.
I understand.
I know you love me.
You've confirmed it, but do you understand that sometimes love alone is not enough. I cannot wait for you. Not like this. I wont, if it means I must sacrifice myself for it. I'm at peace now, maybe not really, bur I’ll try harder. I will fight. Every time harder because I know I have the strength. I will not wait, maybe I still will, but I will try even harder not to wait for you. So when you come back you won’t find me. If you, then I will just look at you and smile. You had to know that I am a good actor, right?
I ...
''You're late, Youngbae.''
... I love you.
Pairing: GDYB
Genre: Angst, Romance
Rating: PG
Summary: Sometimes… love alone is just is not enough.
Sometimes love alone is just is not enough. Sometimes to love someone is not enough to live with it.
How much time had passed?
Too much.
I had not seen you for so long. You had changed. The wrinkles that you had on your face made you look older. I imagined our meeting in my head a thousand times, but it was different. So different that it seemed almost a dream but this was our reality.
I walked over and looked at you. Your mouth was open and you looked with ameze at me. What were you thinking? I sometimes wonder. I still don’t know .. but if you had told. Then I would not wonder if your heart was beating so fast as mine that time.
I never thought I'd see you again. But there was you, with my friends. They asked me if we knew each other. But when you looked at me, I thought the same, I know you too well. And we sat there, opposite each other, looking searchingly at each other. And every time you looked at me, I forgot to breathe, so then I looked away and tried to breath again. Carefully not to show it. I did not show it, didn’t show how much influence you had on me. Still had on me.
But that was it...
I trembled all over my body while I drank and I tried to still my hand as possible. I looked and saw you looking at me. You looked at me so deeply. You did not smile, so were you telling me more. It took too long. I looked away as the tension was gone. Time did not pass. But I .. I could sit an eternity here. I did not think it was over. I was afraid that now I have you back, ill lose you back. Like always.
Kiss me.
Hold me and let me go.
Please ...
You sighed and moved closer. You opened your lips, but closed them again and looked at me. I read so much into them. The regret, missing, the lust, the love. But you did not say anything. Your mouth rambled and you looked at me pleadingly.
It does not matter.
You told me enough.
It was the farewell of the evening. To everyone, except me, you had already said goodbye. You looked at me, pierced my soul and kissed me gently on my cheek. You went a bit back and looked at me again, again leaned forward and kissed me again. On my other cheek. You sighed and pulled back. But you did not let go of my hand, I gently pulled it off. And then I saw it .. in a flash…
Fear.
You were scared and I could not bear that. The next time I saw you, you looked at me, barely. You saw me, and with clenched lips you came up to me. Gave me a hand and left. Everyone looked at me strangely. but that second one we had eye contact told me enough. You ran away.
Coward.
I cried enough because of you. Begged enough to please God if you will come back. I'm sick of your dreams, a world made for just us two. I'm tired of talking about you because I get so tired of it.
It's over and this time I mean it.
Sure you will sometimes come back, but I will push you off harder from me because you don’t make me happy like you used to. You’re afraid, baby. You don’t want to be in this relationship like it used to be, cause you’re afraid of others, of what the other might think if they found out.
I understand.
I know you love me.
You've confirmed it, but do you understand that sometimes love alone is not enough. I cannot wait for you. Not like this. I wont, if it means I must sacrifice myself for it. I'm at peace now, maybe not really, bur I’ll try harder. I will fight. Every time harder because I know I have the strength. I will not wait, maybe I still will, but I will try even harder not to wait for you. So when you come back you won’t find me. If you, then I will just look at you and smile. You had to know that I am a good actor, right?
I ...
''You're late, Youngbae.''
... I love you.