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i think i am slowly losing my mind. again. i am way too old for this crap. i guess i'm emotionally stunted or something. my emotions swing back and forth out of control. fuck. i hate this. i'm completely crushed on someone i'll never meet and its pry just wrong anyway. i'm too old for her and i just can't keep it together. i am not desperate. i wouldn't just take anyone who came along. i have worked too hard on myself and made too many important, positive changes in my life. i know i'm not desperate. they are just feelings, right. i guess they will pass. i know i don't HAVE to have a relatioship to be happy. i finally understand my happiness is up to me and i believe this with my whole heart. no one can fill that hole but me. relationships are gravy, a plus, a gift. not something i can't live without. don't get me wrong, i would be more than interested in developing a new relationship, taking it slow etc. but i'm ok with that not happening, as well. for fucks sake, what a stupid post.
i feel good at least, just confused and i guess that will pass too.
i feel good at least, just confused and i guess that will pass too.