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On a normal day plenty of people do and say plenty of annoying, stupid, or offensive things to me, and I let all of them roll off my back, with the exception of that one goddamn moron while driving. Sometimes though, some people can really just catch me off guard and get me. This is rare because my defense mechanisms are always up, but sometimes, just sometimes, BAMO! Unexpected! Anyway, this happened to me the other day and I'm still shaken by it. Normally something that bugs me goes away pretty quickly, because I shrug it off just like I do the rest of the world, but this, this is different. Not only am I shaken up by what happened, but also by its aftermath. Two days afterwards and I'm still stuck thinking about it! Furthermore, I now have to consider why I am still thinking about it two days later, and then go back and re-evaluate the original situation. This is indeed a rare case, there are not many things that bother me this much. Someone said some pretty hurtful things to me the other day, and, while I expect it out of most people, this was not one person I expected it from. The worst part of it is that I had to pretty much just sit there and take it, because pretty much any response I would have given would only have lead to more grief, and not helped anyone, and even just hurt more. Obviously there's no reason to hurt someone when there is nothing to gain and more to lose. Luckily I was in a good mood at the time, and I was able to bite my tongue enough to keep the situation under control. Even in this journal post I must bite my tongue so that the wrong people don't read it and get the wrong idea. Then, of course, it comes back to me and I'm supposed to play nice and explain to them why what they think is wrong. However, they already think they know what they think they know, and so of course they don't believe me, the author of the goddamn post in the first place! You know what I really want to say? I can't say it here because there's no reason too, it'll only lead to more hardship. Maybe my friend is right when he says "...life is much easier if you're an asshole to everyone, no one expects anything from you and everyone leaves you alone...". Thats pathetic that I am even considering such a notion, but I think it's a testament to how affected of this situation I am. *sigh*
What is a friend? Do you have them? Does anyone? I know what I have, maybe you should read this and think about it and see what you really have, and what you are really missing.
What does a friend do for a friend?
Do they stay up late talking to them when they're upset?
Do they help them clean and move out of their appartment which is in another state?
Do they help them dig holes and construct decks for/with them?
Do they always show up whenever a friend needs something?
Do they try to help them with relationship problems, even if it only goes as far as talking about solutions to problems?
Do they trust each other?
Do they make each other laugh?
Do they make each other cry? On purpose?
Are they there to comfort them in a time of need?
Do they take them out for their 21st birthday?
Do they share secrets?
Do they show up to help them move into their new house?
Do they buy each other expensive things?
Do they ever get mad at each other? Permanently?
Do they ever say no when one friend needs something?
Do they EVER, FUCKING EVER, put a strangers opinion over that of their friends?
Do they defend them in drunken bar fights?
Do they stay up all night talking philosophy with them?
Do they say things to purposely hurt each other, knowing each others weaknesses and problems?
Do true friends ever backstab each other?
Do they ever end a friendship over something petty?
Would they do anything for you if only you asked?
I have had plenty of relationships in my life, and I am 100% sure I can answer all of those questions. Think about who your true friends are. Answer those questions, then see who they really are. Weird how in perspective to things that really matter, some people are always there, and others just seem to always be busy. I guess that goes to show who your real friends are. This is fucking sick.
What is a friend? Do you have them? Does anyone? I know what I have, maybe you should read this and think about it and see what you really have, and what you are really missing.
What does a friend do for a friend?
Do they stay up late talking to them when they're upset?
Do they help them clean and move out of their appartment which is in another state?
Do they help them dig holes and construct decks for/with them?
Do they always show up whenever a friend needs something?
Do they try to help them with relationship problems, even if it only goes as far as talking about solutions to problems?
Do they trust each other?
Do they make each other laugh?
Do they make each other cry? On purpose?
Are they there to comfort them in a time of need?
Do they take them out for their 21st birthday?
Do they share secrets?
Do they show up to help them move into their new house?
Do they buy each other expensive things?
Do they ever get mad at each other? Permanently?
Do they ever say no when one friend needs something?
Do they EVER, FUCKING EVER, put a strangers opinion over that of their friends?
Do they defend them in drunken bar fights?
Do they stay up all night talking philosophy with them?
Do they say things to purposely hurt each other, knowing each others weaknesses and problems?
Do true friends ever backstab each other?
Do they ever end a friendship over something petty?
Would they do anything for you if only you asked?
I have had plenty of relationships in my life, and I am 100% sure I can answer all of those questions. Think about who your true friends are. Answer those questions, then see who they really are. Weird how in perspective to things that really matter, some people are always there, and others just seem to always be busy. I guess that goes to show who your real friends are. This is fucking sick.