A new era?
Well. Live on my own now, with Ben and his friends. It's going pretty well. Working my ass off. But it's worth coming home to a DVR full of Scrubs, Ace of Cakes, L.A. Ink, and Ghost Hunters.
I'm getting a raise.
I started up Squidlicking again. Makes me feel like my life is has settled down. With all that upheaval.
I feel lost though. Lost from my roots. My family, my country, my best friends. Like i'm the only one left standing from what used to be like a year ago.
I'm listening to Bjork and dying my hair. It just brings me back to everything i was pushed out of so fast, childhood mostly. It's comforting though.
Ideally.
This is ideal. But why am i still unhappy?
Not SO unhappy. But i feel like a lot is missing from my life.
Less then before.
I think i just miss Poland and my Mom horribly. And my Dad some, and my sister.
I just feel like i'm drifting away from who i am. And like, nothing is familiar and welcoming and comfortable.
It's a strange feeling.
I need a create a nest again.
I'm getting a raise.
I started up Squidlicking again. Makes me feel like my life is has settled down. With all that upheaval.
I feel lost though. Lost from my roots. My family, my country, my best friends. Like i'm the only one left standing from what used to be like a year ago.
I'm listening to Bjork and dying my hair. It just brings me back to everything i was pushed out of so fast, childhood mostly. It's comforting though.
Ideally.
This is ideal. But why am i still unhappy?
Not SO unhappy. But i feel like a lot is missing from my life.
Less then before.
I think i just miss Poland and my Mom horribly. And my Dad some, and my sister.
I just feel like i'm drifting away from who i am. And like, nothing is familiar and welcoming and comfortable.
It's a strange feeling.
I need a create a nest again.