Home, sweet home.
Sooo...
We found a place to live! The boys signed the lease today. I'm going out to sign it tomorrow. We move in monday. It's in Oakton, i don't know where exactly, i haven't seen it yet but Ben says i'll love it. I've been celebrating by drinking boxed fancy wine (is such a thing?) and watching the blind superhero movie. 2 times, in a row.
God we've been waiting for this forever! I'm so fucking excited i probably won't sleep til then.
Also my dad said he would pay for me and Ben's ticket to Poland this winter. I got really excited about that. I've been preparing my "wear lots of clothes before you go outside because the Polish believe that body heat is sacred and it's disrespectful to lost it in front of them" speech.
Ben's trying out the assistant manager job for day shift. So far so good.
I'm trying to get out of the habit of thinking that after something good happens (or several good things at a time), something bad happens right after. I just don't feel worthy of it i guess. Things just line up in a sequence of cause and effect, and you never know what causes what and what will effect what. My problem is control. So much that i wish i had control over the future.
But i need to let go and think positively.
Because this is fucking awesome fucking news!!!!!!!!!!
Best news i've had in a llllong time.
And i'm so ready!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM READY!
We found a place to live! The boys signed the lease today. I'm going out to sign it tomorrow. We move in monday. It's in Oakton, i don't know where exactly, i haven't seen it yet but Ben says i'll love it. I've been celebrating by drinking boxed fancy wine (is such a thing?) and watching the blind superhero movie. 2 times, in a row.
God we've been waiting for this forever! I'm so fucking excited i probably won't sleep til then.
Also my dad said he would pay for me and Ben's ticket to Poland this winter. I got really excited about that. I've been preparing my "wear lots of clothes before you go outside because the Polish believe that body heat is sacred and it's disrespectful to lost it in front of them" speech.
Ben's trying out the assistant manager job for day shift. So far so good.
I'm trying to get out of the habit of thinking that after something good happens (or several good things at a time), something bad happens right after. I just don't feel worthy of it i guess. Things just line up in a sequence of cause and effect, and you never know what causes what and what will effect what. My problem is control. So much that i wish i had control over the future.
But i need to let go and think positively.
Because this is fucking awesome fucking news!!!!!!!!!!
Best news i've had in a llllong time.
And i'm so ready!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM READY!