Sep 22, 2004 18:32
well me adn brett broke up.. he dumped me ...i mean i was gonna break up with him because i could tell he didnt like me anymore but i didnt think it would be like the way it did. well he likes hayley and he has liked her for the past 4 days and she likes him.. but no one tells me this and it takes him a couple days to break up with me... IN A TEXT MESSAGE (well.. better than nothing i guess...) but things were changing and i guess i still have feelings for him but wut i can i do? im happy for him and hayley. me being mad wont make hiim like me btu it just kinda sucks that he left me for my best friend. (??) i dunno it just kinda makes me feel like i wasnt good enoughs.. its hard to get over 5 months.. well aparantly not for him. and i was pissed and i guess i still am a little bit but u would be too. i dunno right now im just more sad. but wtuever. and thanx allie for dealing with my flip out. cause right now i cant picture myself with anyone but him but i dunno if that is because we would have been going out 5 months this friday or because i still like him. i dunno. ill live. im really glad we r friends though cause he can be an awesome person. i just.. i dunno breaking up with me for my best friend?? and then me hearing that he liked my friend FROM my ffriend that he liked. i would rather he have told me but.. its brett.. and i still really like him but i guess they will make a good couple. im listening to all hail the heartbreaker which totally reflacts my mood. i hope i was a good girlfriend to him though. i just hope it wasnt my fault.
.... but dude seriously if one of ur so called best friends stole ur boyfriend from u .. even though it isnt totally all her fault adn it is mostly his... u would be pissed too.. at BOTH of them .. so im not pissed. and im not mad. i will tell u EXACTLY wut i am .. i am hurt, jealous, alone, heartbroken and on top of that pmsing.. yes im being dramatic but i feel like i was stabbed in the back adn stabbed in the heart. eiher way im just plain upset. but no im not mad. i cnat be mad. if hayley thinks im mad and doesnt believe me when i say im not then she can go make out with him because im not mad. its much worse than that.
but i do see her point of view!!!!!! i just dont think she REALLY understands wut imgoing through. and yes i will be happy for them if they go out and she can talk to me about him and me adn brett have talked for the past couple hourse about everything and we are still friends. and he isnt a totaly ass cause he says he is upset. hm.. but lets just think about this for a second..
wow this sounds really dramatic and depressing so im gonna go.. later.. oh and comment.. make me feel better. even brett can comment lol.