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I gotta stop acting stupid. I get in these states of paranoia after being hurt and depressed where I start thinking very bad thoughts. I over analyze everything and begin to believe people really don't want to be around me. They'll tell me one thing straight out and then I'll analyze all the other little things they said along with it and come to a completely different conclusion than what they told me straight out. This then makes things all the more worse as I overreact and say things I don't mean.
This is mainly due to a loss of trust. Once I am lied to or feel someone is not telling me the truth I start to wonder what else was not truthful and it all spirals out of control. I eventually get to a point where I don't take anything they say at face value and begin to analyze every single thing they said to me.
I think I just need to take a few steps back and give her some space while I focus on putting myself in friend mode. You can only say sorry so many times and I'm starting to worry that I've already reached that limit.
If I don't stop this stupid behavior I'm gonna end up losing one of my best friends (if I haven't already). It was already hard enough losing her as a girlfriend, but it would completely crush me if we never talked again, and if we were no longer able to share everything together like we use to.
This is mainly due to a loss of trust. Once I am lied to or feel someone is not telling me the truth I start to wonder what else was not truthful and it all spirals out of control. I eventually get to a point where I don't take anything they say at face value and begin to analyze every single thing they said to me.
I think I just need to take a few steps back and give her some space while I focus on putting myself in friend mode. You can only say sorry so many times and I'm starting to worry that I've already reached that limit.
If I don't stop this stupid behavior I'm gonna end up losing one of my best friends (if I haven't already). It was already hard enough losing her as a girlfriend, but it would completely crush me if we never talked again, and if we were no longer able to share everything together like we use to.