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I've decided to come out of hiding.
If anyone was curious, the last week consisted of:
- Praying
- Reading the Scriptures
- Watching 4 Rambo Movies
- Working Out
Yeah, I know, crazy week.
I needed to sort out a lot of things in my head, and decide how I need to focus my time and energy for the future. I've decided I need to be a better person all around. I've become devoted to strengthening myself spiritually (thus praying and scripture study), physically (thus working out), and being a kinder person to those that I care about in my life. There are also a lot of immaturities that I would like to dissolve from my life and I know I will become a better and stronger person because of it. There is just so much that I need to change and it is sooooo stupid that I am just now realizing how much of a jerk I am. Too little, too late I guess.
I hate the feeling of not being able to make something right. To not have a second chance when I realize my mistake, but rather just having to live with that mistake. There will be a regret living inside me that I will never be able to lose.
And tonight, probably the second hardest night of my life, with last Sunday being the first.
If anyone was curious, the last week consisted of:
- Praying
- Reading the Scriptures
- Watching 4 Rambo Movies
- Working Out
Yeah, I know, crazy week.
I needed to sort out a lot of things in my head, and decide how I need to focus my time and energy for the future. I've decided I need to be a better person all around. I've become devoted to strengthening myself spiritually (thus praying and scripture study), physically (thus working out), and being a kinder person to those that I care about in my life. There are also a lot of immaturities that I would like to dissolve from my life and I know I will become a better and stronger person because of it. There is just so much that I need to change and it is sooooo stupid that I am just now realizing how much of a jerk I am. Too little, too late I guess.
I hate the feeling of not being able to make something right. To not have a second chance when I realize my mistake, but rather just having to live with that mistake. There will be a regret living inside me that I will never be able to lose.
And tonight, probably the second hardest night of my life, with last Sunday being the first.