Good Enough
I am officially amazed. Stunned, excited, surprised. Overwhelmed. Who would have thought it was possible for someone to truly, genuinely feel that way about me? I'm hardly worth it, but I'm certainly not complaining. I wanted to tell him for a while too - there were so many times it almost slipped out, but I just wasn't able to at first. I've said it before and the feelings were never returned, so it made me insecure and I didn't want it to seem like I was rushing things. I'm glad he told me though. This all still feels like a dream, like it couldn't possibly be happening because I could never be this lucky. If this is a dream, I better never wake up - I would be torn apart. I need to get over this paranoia I have though. I'm so worried I'm going to do something wrong. I feel like I'm waiting for him to get bored of me. I'm terrified that at some point he's going to realize I'm not worth putting up with, that he won't want me anymore. We've hit my tricky little one month-ish limit and I have a track record with that, despite one exception, and it's during my bad months too. Please don't leave me.
I just hope I'm good enough for him. That I'm everything he wants as he is for me. I'm trying my best to be. I don't think I mind being vulnerable again and putting everything out there - it's worth the risk to find out. He's worth the risk to find out. He's worth everything. I'm not messing this up. I can't handle another heartbreak, especially now that I'm so attached to him and I don't want to hurt him either. I don't want be shattered to pieces again after he's doing such a good job putting my heart back together.
I have a great feeling about this. =]
I love you, Rhyan. <3
Good Enough - Evanescence
Under your spell again.
I can't say no to you.
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand.
I can't say no to you.
Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
I can't breathe but I feel...
Good enough,
I feel good enough for you.
Drink up sweet decadence.
I can't say no to you,
And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind.
I can't say no to you.
Shouldn't let you conquer me completely.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
Can't believe that I feel...
Good enough,
I feel good enough.
It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good.
And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall.
Pour real life down on me.
'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough.
Am I good enough for you to love me too?
So take care what you ask of me,
'cause I can't say no.
I just hope I'm good enough for him. That I'm everything he wants as he is for me. I'm trying my best to be. I don't think I mind being vulnerable again and putting everything out there - it's worth the risk to find out. He's worth the risk to find out. He's worth everything. I'm not messing this up. I can't handle another heartbreak, especially now that I'm so attached to him and I don't want to hurt him either. I don't want be shattered to pieces again after he's doing such a good job putting my heart back together.
I have a great feeling about this. =]
I love you, Rhyan. <3
Click to viewGood Enough - Evanescence
Under your spell again.
I can't say no to you.
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand.
I can't say no to you.
Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
I can't breathe but I feel...
Good enough,
I feel good enough for you.
Drink up sweet decadence.
I can't say no to you,
And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind.
I can't say no to you.
Shouldn't let you conquer me completely.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
Can't believe that I feel...
Good enough,
I feel good enough.
It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good.
And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall.
Pour real life down on me.
'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough.
Am I good enough for you to love me too?
So take care what you ask of me,
'cause I can't say no.