painful rant

May 02, 2015 00:47

i dont even know what to say, and probably no one will know or understand what im talking about. but i have nowhere else to vent... and it hurts so much... it all hurts...  i just wish this pain could end ( Read more... )

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callise May 2 2015, 19:21:15 UTC
I'm sooo sorry! I don't know your exact pain, but I certainly know some pain.

It's like you pour your heart and soul into them. You love them unconditionally. What do you get in returned? Treated like you mean so little to them. They mean the world to you, but to them mean so little.

It's like DON'T YOU SEE! don't you see how much I care! how much I've been there! how much I love you.

I've cried RIVERS OF TEARS. how sad you make me, even though I cry and cry and cry I still love you.

*sigh* life sucks. just hang in there ok? just keep on going one step at a time.

try to focus on school and your job. keep distracted.

I do hope you get to feeling better. This pain is so horrible.

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yamapi_luver4 May 10 2015, 22:28:13 UTC
hey there :) thanks for taking the time to read this and for caring enough to leave a comforting comment

i just read what i posted and i know i was really upset when i posted that but wow, my typos! i didnt realize i was THAT upset!

anyway, everything is better with that person now. even though i told her she could walk away, we just kept talking and she never ended up leaving lol she apologized and-- well lets just say its long and complicated but its ok now!~ were fine now~ i know well still have ups and downs but for now, were still friends ^^

it was so incredibly painful. indescribably painful to the point that i wanted to just die, but, like i said, its better now. thank you so much for your comment! it super means a lot to me. i thought people would just ignore this post but i really appreciate that you didnt

youre a good friend, even though we rarely talk anymore

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callise May 12 2015, 04:37:09 UTC
your welcome. I saw your post so I though you could use a reply to see someone is reading and there for you.

I didnt even pay attention to typos.

I'm glad things are better.

Yeah Ive felt my own pain from loving someone so deeply feel like you mean so little back. To love them unconditionally but feel like not special....

Its hard, so I though you could use a reply.

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yamapi_luver4 May 21 2015, 05:28:10 UTC
the reply did mean a lot to me, so thank you again so much for it. its nice to know theres someone who cares and pays attention to me, even if i do get annoying with all of my drama haha

youre a good friend, even though i disappeared from here for some time. you were right there when i came back and i definitely appreciate that

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callise May 21 2015, 06:07:28 UTC
your welcome! it isn't annoying drama. I sort of felt some of your pain, I know when you hurt that badly you NEED to know there's someone out there. So I made a point of replying to the post.

HA HA I feel all the LJ people have been disappearing randomly reappearing.

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yamapi_luver4 November 5 2015, 03:27:25 UTC
And here i am, disappearing again... sorry about that... I'm not in a much better bitsy than i was when i posted this haha orz

How are you though?

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callise November 5 2015, 05:41:13 UTC
aawww sorry you aren't much better when you posted that.

How am I....such a rough question....

my Dad died, my sister had a mental break down, I've been having the weight of the world on my shoulders....

I AM SOOOO HOPING the worst part is over and things can get better.... *fingers crossed*

I hope things get better for you too!

if you need someone to message about what's going on...these days I am slow to respond....but I will reply

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yamapi_luver4 November 19 2015, 21:27:08 UTC

I am so sorry to hear that! I can't even imagine what you are going through. The important thing is just to keep on going, but also be sure you do grieve as much as you need... I hope you'll be better soon too

As for me, I'm just like on a roller coaster, very up and down. Lately the ups have been coming a bit more frequently, so I know I'll be ok some day

Even though I'm not here so often, you can always send me a message whenever and I'll do my best to be here for you too. I'm not the best at consoling or anything, but I can always listen!

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