Oct 18, 2007 10:37
OK, it's bound to come out anyway, so I might as well give the lowdown here, before you guys find out from the Rumor Board or something.
Jin and I got into a brawl. It was bad and we were both using Personas and it is not something I'd recommend anyone do on their spare time.
We both had our reasons. He did something wrong, I called him out, he said something wrong, I punched him out. Then he threw a grenade at me. And things got out of hand.
I know, at some level, that I probably did something wrong there somewhere.
But honestly?
If he did the same things, I'd do it all over again.
You deserve to know the truth.
When I found out that Jin had been leading you on, not telling you about his choice - something snapped. I called him out to talk and to... try to make the bastard guilty, or even just a little bit sad, or feel SOMETHING about how he treated you.
I swear I wasn't out for a fight... though I was prepared for one.
But he threw a grenade at me Yukari - and not some smoke or flash or... it was an explosive one. I... I could have died.
That's when I brought out my Persona. That's when I charged him with my morning star.
I'm sorry I... Maybe a better man could have walked away. But I'm... I'm not reyyd to die Yukari. I know I was just talking about it, about not getting lucky but - Just last Saturday we were eating ice cream and ... and I was so happy to be alive. I didn't want to die. Didn't want to miss any moments like that.
So... so yes I was trying to kill him. In my defense - he was trying to do the same. He... he cast Mudo on me Yukari. A Death spell. I don't think I can...
I... I wanted to kill him. I could have, for a second there... Really could have. But I stopped... and I hope that means something somehow.
And now... I'm scared Yukari. I might have messed things up for all of us...
But - like I said. I'd do it again.
He shouldn't have hurt you Yukari.
B-but maybe I shouldn't have...
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
[OOC: All replies to this will be AFTER Touya returns from the hospital, so if you're planing on visiting him there, and ask the same questions, he won't reply here.]
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