Wowza.

[yaburetayume]

AWESOME word of the day over at Wiktionary:

petrichor n. 1. The distinctive scent which accompanies the first rain after a long warm dry spell.

I LOVE IT.

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[awickedmemory]

That is a beautiful word~ ♥ How is it pronounced? PEH-tri-kor? peh-TRI-kor? PEH-tri-chor?

[yaburetayume]

*checks* It's /ˈpɛtrɨkər/. I like how it compresses all that meaning into one word.

*glomps you* How are youuuuuuuuu?

[awickedmemory]

8D Words are awesome like that!

^_^ I'm okay! *glomps back* ♥ Can't complain. Well, I can and definitely do but for the most part, my life is pretty compact. XD I've got a job, as annoying as it is... I've got friends, even if most of them are online... I'm in relatively good health, aside from some lingering jaw and dental problems... I've got food and shelter and minimal financial expenses so I don't have to worry about money. I'm very lucky, and very bored. XD Security and boredom versus risk and adventure, I guess.

Can you believe it's almost June?! It's been almost exactly 10 years since we met!

[yaburetayume]

I'm glad most things are good in your life. Generally it's the same for me. I'm sure I complain quite a lot, in my own head or to my mom or friends, but I should instead count my blessings. It's hard, though!

Gahhhhhh, that makes me feel so OLD! My mom teased me a couple of weeks ago and called my upcoming age a "quarter-century" and I very nearly squealed with rage and incredulity. Somehow I still feel about 15 or so, which is madness. But I'm so glad we've held on to each other this long! There's only one other of my friends with whom I maintain semi-regular contact that I've known longer. *huggles you* Let's try for at least another 10 years, okay? And maybe one day meet in person! ^o^;

[awickedmemory]

xD I do try to count my blessings regularly, but I think that just depresses me... since it's usually those very blessings that make me feel so frustrated. XD Again, the stability - any kind of leash. Definitely hard!

Ahhh! I don't want to think of our ages as a quarter-century! It sounds so oooold. We haven't lived enough to have our ages counted in terms of centuries! Eek. T_T

*cling cuddle* Don't worry! So long as you don't disappear off the face of the internet, we will definitely stay friends! These last ten years have been interesting... so much always going on, at the same time it feels like standing still. I hear you about the whole "I still feel about 15 or so" thing. Half the time, I go into work and feel like I'm just playing Office or something. It doesn't feel real. ._. Adults? We're adults, really? This is adulthood? Nyuuu~ *hides

[yaburetayume]

Believe me, I will NOT disappear from the Internet. It's practically my lifeblood. And I couldn't let you go! We've been through a bunch of ups and downs (which is just part of growing up, I know, but still!), and even if we're not chatting every night (remember our crazy AIM convos? :D:D), you're still a dear friend. You're the only online friend I've ever communicated with off the Internet! I remember being so nervous when we talked on the phone, hahah. I'm so, so happy we haven't lost touch even though there've been long gaps in communication sometimes. There are many people who I thought would be my lifelong friends when I was 15 who I haven't actually spoken to in years now, and that makes me a bit sad. So even though we're not the same people we were at 15 (thank goodness, because 15-year-olds are shitheads--although maybe in 10 years I'll be saying that about 25-year-olds, eheh), I'm glad we haven't changed so much that we can't still connect. And someday the stars will align and we shall meet! <3

[awickedmemory]

^____^ Yaaay! I totally DO remember our crazy AIM convos up until 5am~ and your impromptu poems about your keyboard moving like lava~ even drugged up and half-asleep, your typing was always perfect. XDDD

Omg, I'd totally forgotten we talked on the phone! xD I remember now~ being surprised you didn't have a strong southern drawl (hey, Texas, y'know XD), lying on mom's bed because her room was nice and dark. xD

"thank goodness, because 15-year-olds are shitheads" - Omg, so true. XD I reread some of my old LJ posts the other day, back when Jen and I met, and... I was completely bewildered as to why she ever contacted me. XD Sooooooo emoooooooo, sooooo pretentiously angstyyyyy. XD

♥ We shall definitely meet! At the LEAST, if one of us ever gets married we'll have to invite the other. XD Ah, if money (and vacation time at work) grew on trees I'd just fly over there for some random weekend getaway. ._.

... xD Yeah, I totally trashed the oldest fics, lol. They were just unbelievably abysmal - so bad I couldn't even cringe! I'd just sit

[yaburetayume]

*lol* My drugged-out poetry! I still have all of those in a Word document to preserve forever or until my computer crashes. And I'm proud to know my typing was perfect despite my incoherency. XD

[awickedmemory]

Oh, gods, I am so behind on e-mail and replies to LJ comments.

I was always very impressed by it, yes. x)

Your closet?! Why? LMAO.

"If I met my fifteen-year-old self, I'd bitchslap me." ← I don't think I could even have handled that much contact with the annoying little whiny, angsty brat I was... lol. For the most part my thought processes haven't changed much from back then (I don't know if it means I was wise then or am still a moron now), but my behaviour and self-control certainly has. But I've been pretty unhappy since I was awfully little, so... I'm thinking it's just pretty ingrained in me. XD I have a low happiness set point. *nod

[yaburetayume]

Brava for replying to this ooooooooold comment, darling

[awickedmemory]

Haha, here's another old reply. XD

[yaburetayume]

Yeah, even a bitchslap would not have gotten through to me at 15. Teenagers are so thick-skulled! It's a little depressing for me to realize that, except for a high school diploma and some emotional maturity, I'm in the exact same place as I was when I was 15: aimless, unemployed, living with my mother

[awickedmemory]

The aimless I can't help with, since I have no goals or dreams or ambitions, either. XD The unemployed part can be rectified, though! And after a few years of having that part fixed (not to imply it's simple, of course - it's hard to get a job, it's hard to stick with it, it's hard to build your own life and be accountable for yourself), the living with the mother can be changed as well. Unless you like living together, in which case there's no need to change it. :3 Many people live with their parents until they marry, if they can stand each other! It's cost-efficient, after all. Does your mom work? Maybe she knows of some job openings somewhere

[yaburetayume]

I've applied a couple of places, but heard nothing, so I think it's safe to say I did not get those jobs. It's discouraging. I feel like the biggest mark against me is my lack of experience, but that leaves me in a catch-22: I don't get hired because I'm inexperienced, but if I don't have a job, I won't get any experience! So it's quite frustrating as well. The USAF is still my goal, and I think I'm finally resolved to actively work toward it. I'm going to work out until I drop and try to eat better

[awickedmemory]

"I don't get hired because I'm inexperienced, but if I don't have a job, I won't get any experience!" - Yep, that's the exact quandary many young adults face when they're trying to get into the work force. =\ Once you're over the 18-22 "college-aged" range it tends to be harder to get started unless you've got connections... >.O Work is hard. XD Whoo for USAF! My friend is there right now, working at the research lab in Ohio. *nod* Another recently re-joined the Marines for another run~

"We're perhaps too close, and probably codependent on some level." - That's not unusual after a family trauma, although I can imagine it's painfully difficult to break out of... it's always hard to leave what's familiar. XD That's part of why I took off to Japan for a term - because I was afraid I'd never get around to leaving what I know. It wasn't long, but it was enough to get me out the door and realising, "Hey, I can survive!"

"She was going to be a teacher, but that train went off the track and it deeply dejected her." - Is she planning to get

[yaburetayume]

God, my birthday's on Saturday and I'm starting to get worried, like, "Shouldn't my life have started by 26?" It's kinda depressing. I have to get my shit together in June because my brother and his family are visiting at the end of the month and I want to have something to show them, you know?

My mom and I have almost always been attached at the hip, even before my dad died. I was the last baby, and after my brother left home, I was practically an only child. My mom only worked for the school district, so her schedule matched mine exactly, and when my dad went on business trips, it would just be the two of us. Since we lost my dad, it's only natural that our worlds kinda revolve around each other. My mom accidentally (and embarrassingly) introduced me as her wife to some people, but it's actually true in a weird way.

"I was afraid I'd never get around to leaving what I know." That's my feeling exactly. I've got that feeling like, if I don't do it now, I probably never will, and that would be tragic