Everything that I love is gone, and I'm tired of hangin' on. . . .
What a weekend. . . . Good, bad, awful. There were some hightlights to this weekend, and there was definitely a lot of lowlights to the weekend. We can start with the lows and then end the entry on what I hope to be a good note. . .
Relationship issues on the forefront with Kara and Chris, and I as the obligatory best friend was there every step of the way. I can't really go in to alot of detail about the situation, just know that it isn't good and resolution needs to come swiftly.
Robert went and hung out with Tina for a couple hours while I was staying at his house this weekend and didn't bother to tell me, he just sort of said, "I'm going for a walk" and then two hours later I called him and was like . . "Uhh, comin back anytime soon?" and then I heard Tina in the background, got really pissed off and took a walk of my own. Resolution still needs to happen with this situation, I have tried sitting back and taking it because they were friends before I got there, but he is inconsiderate to me when she's around.
Jennifer moved in with Nanni and Pappi, which means, she also moved in with Robert. . . not sure how I feel about this one yet.
Nanni told me that if I could find a job in Marshall I could move in with them and just stay with Robert in his room. . . . Unsure of how he feels, scared that even though he wants me to move in and so does she, that it will mess everything up. . . I don't want to mess things up. . . but I appreciate the offer.
Moving on to the highs, as I mentioned before, stayed most of my weekend at Roberts house, that was good up until sunday night when he took his walk. We got to hang out and it was just nice to be away from Kara and Chris' drama for a while, ya know?
Got to go swimming for the first tiem this summer sunday afternoon. The water was really cold but it was great to just get in the water and it just felt amazing. the release. I guess it's just hard for me to describe how a pool makes me feel. . . .
Work is going okay, grades are slowly but surely improving, Job is getting more complicated as the days pass, more boring because people don't go to the labs as much during the break semester, but all that aside, I got another $.10 raise so that's all gravy :)
I'm still really broke, I need to have a serious conversation with Robert, and those of you who have dated me understand that a serious conversation with me means bad times ahead, but hopefully we get through it and it doesn't mess stuff up too much, I just don't want things to get too out of hand before it's too late to fix them.
I hope he'll still want to be with me.
I'm sure he will...
but part of me wonders why he was there in the first place, I'm nothing special.
Wish me luck
My other high note, I got to play with our kittens yesterday. . . . we have 5 of them and they're fandasmical if I do say so myself. . . I already named one of them chubby. . . he's only like 2 weeks old and he is so big. . . I heart those little guys. :)