waiting
here i sit. i have a million things i could and should do, but cant. shayna is at the doctor and is gonna call me when she is leaving so i can pick her up. i am sooo excited. i know she dsoent really care. infact if i called it off she wouldnt mind at all i dont think. but i am gonna try to fix that. i need to open her eyes to teh truth. not to ME, but just the truth. this is not some weird atempt to win her back, i just want her to see things for how they are because she isnt seeing clearly right now. i dont think i will b able to to much but i can try. this med has her wacked out and she cant help it. i am just trying to help her throught it and find what she wants. she really needs help now, and i have always been here to give it, and now should be no diffrent. so wish me luck...hopefull i can talk her into goin out with me on firday. i know she is not to crazy about that either but i will try, i think it would do us both a lot of good. well i am off to sit and watch my phone and tell it to ring...im sure ill write again later tonight after i come home and write my 7 page report thats due tomorrow....