::Hits head on brick wall::
Does anybody else hate their minds?... well... I do it thinks too much. Last night I want to say, like i do every night, that I had a wonderful evening, but...once again I cant. I was a little bit scared...I got to thinking about my future and my lack of financial stability. I mean I have to move out and I have to do it soon not just because my grandparents hate me and want me out but because if I dont leave Im gunna friggin shoot myself! Plus, Im already way to dependant on other people and I dont want to be I want to control myself and my life, my direction, my future. I dont want other people be a deciding factor in who I am and am to become!
I also got to thinking about my future career, and what its going to be. I'm really scared that Im not good enough to make it all the way... I'll just end up being a washed up loser who tried to be famous and failed then gave up on everything and became a bum. I really dont know if I have the talent to make it. I know I have the drive even though I get scared like i am now I no I have the drive but drive isnt everything you have to have talent too. I know people keep telling me Im good but I'm not sure I believe them because they are all my friends and could be easily lying to me so I wont feel bad.
I then got to thinkin about my family situation and its no good but im not going to go into detail about that because its too much of a downer for most people. But ya I thought about all of that and it sucked so any of you who know about my past and my situation know what I'm talking about.
But as you probably guessed i didnt sleep at all last night so Im quite tired and still thinking unfortunatly, but IM gunna go I need to make some phone calls and eat something so I can feed my stomach.. he's growlin at me
I also got to thinking about my future career, and what its going to be. I'm really scared that Im not good enough to make it all the way... I'll just end up being a washed up loser who tried to be famous and failed then gave up on everything and became a bum. I really dont know if I have the talent to make it. I know I have the drive even though I get scared like i am now I no I have the drive but drive isnt everything you have to have talent too. I know people keep telling me Im good but I'm not sure I believe them because they are all my friends and could be easily lying to me so I wont feel bad.
I then got to thinkin about my family situation and its no good but im not going to go into detail about that because its too much of a downer for most people. But ya I thought about all of that and it sucked so any of you who know about my past and my situation know what I'm talking about.
But as you probably guessed i didnt sleep at all last night so Im quite tired and still thinking unfortunatly, but IM gunna go I need to make some phone calls and eat something so I can feed my stomach.. he's growlin at me