Fuck boys... I'm gonna be a lesbian.
Ok so I am tired of coming here and talking about icky stuff, but whatev... I need to one last time.
Two nights ago I asked Nick if he still smoked... TWO nights ago. He swore to me up and down that he didn't. I even was like are you lying to me? He was like no I swear I am not. Then guess what... The very next morning I go over to Jeffs house and he is out in front smoking a cigarette. It grosses me the fuck out how someone can lie to me STILL so easily. I am tired of it. I am tired of him. I have no desire to be with him, and I haven't for a LONG time... but that doesn't mean it is okay to lie to me.
That one incident was followed by seeing him smoking TWO more times that night. I wanted to scream and yell or cry or something, but I just walked away. I fucking hate liars. It makes me sick to my stomach.
I found out the other night that he spent the summer at the strip club. We were together this summer. Now I know where the fuck his money went and why I had to pay for everything. All of the money that my parents paid him went to that and smoking. Ewwww. How is that supposed to make me feel? What, was I not enough for him that he had to go see other naked girls? It wouldn't surprise me AT ALL if he cheated on me while we were together. He has made it clear that I wasn't good enough for him. He went to the strip club again last night. I can't be mad about that but it just really grosses me out just cuz I know that he went all summer long.
Fuck guys. I swear. Wow, I am impressed... this is the first time I have cried over him in a long time. I have been pretty much numb to feelings for a while now.
I hate to be all blunt and shit, but watch out girls... don't EVER fall for Nick or someone like him. He will fucking lie to you like your feelings mean shit. He doesn't care. You can put your whole heart out there and he will fucking crush it til there's nothing left.
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.
Two nights ago I asked Nick if he still smoked... TWO nights ago. He swore to me up and down that he didn't. I even was like are you lying to me? He was like no I swear I am not. Then guess what... The very next morning I go over to Jeffs house and he is out in front smoking a cigarette. It grosses me the fuck out how someone can lie to me STILL so easily. I am tired of it. I am tired of him. I have no desire to be with him, and I haven't for a LONG time... but that doesn't mean it is okay to lie to me.
That one incident was followed by seeing him smoking TWO more times that night. I wanted to scream and yell or cry or something, but I just walked away. I fucking hate liars. It makes me sick to my stomach.
I found out the other night that he spent the summer at the strip club. We were together this summer. Now I know where the fuck his money went and why I had to pay for everything. All of the money that my parents paid him went to that and smoking. Ewwww. How is that supposed to make me feel? What, was I not enough for him that he had to go see other naked girls? It wouldn't surprise me AT ALL if he cheated on me while we were together. He has made it clear that I wasn't good enough for him. He went to the strip club again last night. I can't be mad about that but it just really grosses me out just cuz I know that he went all summer long.
Fuck guys. I swear. Wow, I am impressed... this is the first time I have cried over him in a long time. I have been pretty much numb to feelings for a while now.
I hate to be all blunt and shit, but watch out girls... don't EVER fall for Nick or someone like him. He will fucking lie to you like your feelings mean shit. He doesn't care. You can put your whole heart out there and he will fucking crush it til there's nothing left.
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.