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God things have been going so good lately and then he has to go ruin it.
I can't trust a single word he says. After over 2 years of being together and being friends, I honestly look back and don't know what I saw in him. The first year was amazing, but that was only because I never found out about his lies. As soon as I did, it was just one thing after another. And he blames ME for our fights on the phone. If he didn't lie or treat me like shit, we would never have anything but good stuff to talk about.
Its funny, because he still brings up the one thing that I have ever done to hurt him. Still, to this day he tries to make me feel bad for it when I can't even count on two hands all of the stuff he has done to me. If I even mention the name Jessie he freaks out on me, yet he has the nerve to bring up Dan all the time. Well guess what... I DON'T REGRET THAT AT ALL. He was one person who made and continues to make me feel good about myself ALL the time! That was probably the best decision I ever made because it made me feel what its like to be treated good. Now I won't settle for anything less.
I honestly do not believe a single word that comes out of his mouth anymore... and that is really sad to me. He could tell me that the sky is blue, and I would question him.
No more of this. This week I was so happy and the only conclusion i can come to is because I didn't talk to him. A week and a half of silence and the first time we talk we fight. Fuck it. I am done. I refuse to allow him to make me feel bad anymore. No boy will EVER have that power over me again. And when I find one that is worth it, I guarantee it would kill him inside to see me upset.
I can't trust a single word he says. After over 2 years of being together and being friends, I honestly look back and don't know what I saw in him. The first year was amazing, but that was only because I never found out about his lies. As soon as I did, it was just one thing after another. And he blames ME for our fights on the phone. If he didn't lie or treat me like shit, we would never have anything but good stuff to talk about.
Its funny, because he still brings up the one thing that I have ever done to hurt him. Still, to this day he tries to make me feel bad for it when I can't even count on two hands all of the stuff he has done to me. If I even mention the name Jessie he freaks out on me, yet he has the nerve to bring up Dan all the time. Well guess what... I DON'T REGRET THAT AT ALL. He was one person who made and continues to make me feel good about myself ALL the time! That was probably the best decision I ever made because it made me feel what its like to be treated good. Now I won't settle for anything less.
I honestly do not believe a single word that comes out of his mouth anymore... and that is really sad to me. He could tell me that the sky is blue, and I would question him.
No more of this. This week I was so happy and the only conclusion i can come to is because I didn't talk to him. A week and a half of silence and the first time we talk we fight. Fuck it. I am done. I refuse to allow him to make me feel bad anymore. No boy will EVER have that power over me again. And when I find one that is worth it, I guarantee it would kill him inside to see me upset.