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It's funny when you realize something hasn't happened in awhile, and then it unexpectedly does.
I haven't argued with my father in forever. We've been getting along so well; most likely because I haven't really sat down with him and talked all summer. He's been bringing up American Idol lately because there are auditions August 13th in Jacksonville. After I talked to him about my trip to Kansas City and how I would go from there to college, he mentioned the auditions again. My mom and I laughed and I tried to explain to him how my heart isn't as into it as I'm sure other "contestants" hearts are, and I wouldn't want to try out and get really far in something I am really unsure about. He freaked out and screamed, "Cut the crap Ali, you're always fucking letting people walk all over you! You let Morgan take your role and now you're letting others get in your way! When will you ever do something for yourself and DO something with your life?!" That is not an exact quote. I'm sure of it because it stung more when he said it.
Bottom line is we ended the argument on a bad note and we're both convinced the other one is childish. It's just really upsetting to me because it made me realize that my parents really don't know what I want; they think my dream is to be famous through either musical theatre or just singing in general. It's hard to tell them the life I want to live is just playing gigs with a band of good friends and to travel with that.
Whatever whatever whatever. I bought my Dark Knight ticket just hours ago, and I'm officially excited. Plus I really think the Kansas City trip is going to happen, and I cannot wait. Michaela comes home Friday, Alisha comes home Monday, and I have Lovewell every weekday.
I wish I could go to Warped Tour this Saturday. I miss Max Bemis.
I haven't argued with my father in forever. We've been getting along so well; most likely because I haven't really sat down with him and talked all summer. He's been bringing up American Idol lately because there are auditions August 13th in Jacksonville. After I talked to him about my trip to Kansas City and how I would go from there to college, he mentioned the auditions again. My mom and I laughed and I tried to explain to him how my heart isn't as into it as I'm sure other "contestants" hearts are, and I wouldn't want to try out and get really far in something I am really unsure about. He freaked out and screamed, "Cut the crap Ali, you're always fucking letting people walk all over you! You let Morgan take your role and now you're letting others get in your way! When will you ever do something for yourself and DO something with your life?!" That is not an exact quote. I'm sure of it because it stung more when he said it.
Bottom line is we ended the argument on a bad note and we're both convinced the other one is childish. It's just really upsetting to me because it made me realize that my parents really don't know what I want; they think my dream is to be famous through either musical theatre or just singing in general. It's hard to tell them the life I want to live is just playing gigs with a band of good friends and to travel with that.
Whatever whatever whatever. I bought my Dark Knight ticket just hours ago, and I'm officially excited. Plus I really think the Kansas City trip is going to happen, and I cannot wait. Michaela comes home Friday, Alisha comes home Monday, and I have Lovewell every weekday.
I wish I could go to Warped Tour this Saturday. I miss Max Bemis.