i shouldnt care or wonder where and how you are, but i cant hide this hurt inside my broken heart
augh, i just got woken up to constant nonstop ringing of the phone .. im very mad, like its only 11:30, why are people calling my house this early?! .. anyway, yesterday was one month since ive been hooking up with joe -=) .. last night, me and my friends went out for my friend melissas birthday .. and after, we went back to her house .. it was really fun .. i bought her the hilary duff cd and got it autographed for her, and she seemed to like it -=) .. so after i got home, i went online at about 12:30, and julian IMed me and was like i saw you when i was with my boys, why were you fronting like you didnt see me?! .. oh yeah, julians this kid that i was talking to and hooking up with for about 9 months on and off .. but anyway, he was going on and on about that, and then after knowing how much i used to like him, he asks me to hook him up with one of my friends! .. i was so mad .. but, then we kept talking, and he asked if i wanted to start hooking up with him again .. so, i told him i didnt know, because of everything i went through with him, i really dont know anymore .. even though i loved him, i did manage to get over him .. so, his friend victor slept over his house and i was talking to him for a while too .. and he wants me to hook him up with one of my friends, so i asked my friend danielle .. and i sent victor her pictures, and he thinks she "looks really good", but i dont think danielle will find him attractive, cause hes very thugish .. but, maybe shell just hook up with him as a favor to me, but i doubt it lol .. i also told her not to tell our friend maria that im talking to julian again, and she promised me that she wouldnt .. but she probably is going to, and then marias going to wind up yelling at me, but whatever