a brand new day
things will get much better so baby dry ur eyes every day struggles no more room for me to cry gotta keep ur head up gotta stay strong
last weekend...so much happened!good and bad...i realized a couple of things that i didn't know.so all in all it was a good weekend and things are a little bit easier now.so i guess we'll see.
::friday::on friday i worked on my day off but it was all good.my plans got messed up twice so i guess it was for the best i worked made some good $ so its all good.then after work i went to pick up adam.we had a lil spat before i picked him up cause we really havent seen each other in a while so we were easily annoyed at the other.but yeah anyways i picked him up after work.we went to get some sandwiches and were supposed to go to the movies but decided to instead rent cruel intentions 3 which turned out to be a pretty good movie.we had fun just lounging around my house.then we watched miracle but i was really tiered so i decided to go to bed.it was a really good night though turned out that everything i was trying so hard not to feel was like i expected still there.the love was still there from both ends which made it ending 10xs harder.
::saturday::i woke up really early to take my mock sat test.have to take the real one june 5th.kinda nervous bout that but oh well.then i showered and had the weirdest erge to call tori.i did and thank god i did she was hysterical.it was very very emotional conversation.im still really shaken by it and want desperately to talk to her.im really shaken up about it.but she told me to go to my cousins grad. party so i did.adam woke up at some point during the convo and was really supportive.told me to calm down that it would all work out.i probably would of lost it if it werent for him.so i made him breakfest!hehe!made him some pancakes and eggs and ham and mouffins.then we got ready and shit.eventually we left to go to maryland.his bitch ass fell alseep like usual on the way there.but we got there and walked into my cousins house to a shit load of people.his party was soo much fun.him and jessica{his gf} rented out this hall and had a joint party.the dj was eh but my cousin was crazy.he was doin backflips and actin so silly.i love him so much.im so excited for him to be goin to college in ohio.i can see him more often...hopefully.so yeah his party was alot of fun.even adam had fun which is rare at family outtings and shit like that cause hes always uncomfortable.but the drive home we got lost but it didnt matter cause me and him talked about so much like everything we talked about worked through.answer alot of questions but also was really hard to go through.i swore to myself i wouldnt cry but sure enough what did i do...i cried.but he did to so its even.just kidden.
::sunday::adam woke me up early as shit to just hang around and talk and spend some time before he left.he left early as hell too but it was better that way.i dont think i could of delt with spendin the whole day with him knowin hour by hour our time was less and less.so him leavin early made it somewhat easier.i was a reck though for the like 3hrs after he left.and for the most part im ok.but then theres times where it hits me and its unbareable.and if i sat here and said im ok id be lien but i will be eventually.but not yet.
::monday::one word......CRAZY!not goin into details.
::today::was sooo much fun like it was great.wish i could relive it again.except for work.i had alot of shit to do which blew but other than that today has been really fun.im just glad this year is over.im lookin foward to summer.its gonna be great.im gonna chill with my girlies and shit.its gonna be off the hock...like i cant fucking wait!sorry got all hyped there!and who knows maybe ill meet some hot guy and forget all bout adam....yeah like that will happen.oh yeah he invited me out there in august!