pop rocks
I've grown a headache trying to move along, through my path. I believe that there is a greater world out there. It could be aliens, walking around on a different planet. They have all come down to earth, before we knew time, they are the directors of our movies, and when the time comes for the destruction they've planned, were going to ignore it, because were closed minded, and our lives have been surrounded with the fiction. But thats what they planned, they took the time, with there intelligence to make our minds think what is true, isn't. For a second we wouldn't take into consideration what was real, we would be gone in an instant. Thinking logic, the world is just a big video game some kid is playing in a lager galaxy. He is pressing the controls to run our lives, he is waking us up in the morning, he is picking our jobs, sending us to school, he is making our choices for us without our knowledge, he is sending us on a field trip for his entertainment, and then he puts us to sleep. Or you could be a strong believer that the world is at its out most normal range, that everything seems just like it is. I'm not sure yet, what occurrence i believe has the power to run this world, but i take all opinions into hand. One thing I do know, that nothing seems like its suppose to, there is always another definition than the first. There is a place you go after you die, where that is, i'm not sure yet, until i get there. And if you have ever seen the Exorcist, take up some research, its all ccurrences that takes place in this life. Its insane to consider and think is ture, and it might be a sin, but when there lies a god, a devil is born.
This all could be just nonsense, in one ear and out the other. I don't understand it yet either.
This weekend is a big blur to me, and i don't like it one bit. I don't like the fact that drugs are taking our my life, and my friends. I don't speak my mind too often, but my friends really do mean the world to mean, even if were not that close. I care and i think about whats really going to happen to us each time i take a hit of that joint, instead of having fun, im scared, terrified that my life is going to be pointless, and to me it seems like im the only one that gives a damn. I could be having fun now, but next year, i'll still wanting to have fun, im going to be changing, and now, looking at the changes of ones im surrounded with, i don't want to be, i don't want to make mistakes. I'm scared about my life, but im also scared to think whats going to become of them, what are they going to be doing a year from now when im off in college. I wish that they would know that when i say this, its not false, there lives could mean so much, there dreams could come true, and i wouldn't care so much when they smoke or joke around about life if they took some things seriously. Everyone is gong to loose a lot the rate this is going.
Most of all, I wish i could tell everyone of my friends that they are worth something, and don't have to joke around about where there from, I want to say that everything will be okay, but if that joint still sleeps in our hand/hands, its going to come hard, and its going to be a while until i/we grow up. Im going to be eighteen next year, and i hope when i graduate, i go to Africa, i want to take off a couple months and photograph,study animal life, follow the herds/families around, and when I come back, I want everyone to be happy, they should all have there own lives, and I don't want to see no one, where they are today.
Were all so much better than that.
Yes, im talking about you. All of you, in my eye.
Im scared for you and me.
For now, im enjoying life, but hating what others are going through, i want lust and love, so much that i could give up a arm for it, im ready for the fights im going to have because im so jealously in love. There are going to be two people who saw each other for a split second and know that there going to be together, they couldn't see themselves kissing another. There too young to comprehend what it's all about, how much time and care is involved. But when years have past, I still want to be able to look into that persons eyes and see the passion they once had for me for that split second, if not, its heartbreaking. You can be so madly in love, that its blinding, really.
This all could be just nonsense, in one ear and out the other. I don't understand it yet either.
This weekend is a big blur to me, and i don't like it one bit. I don't like the fact that drugs are taking our my life, and my friends. I don't speak my mind too often, but my friends really do mean the world to mean, even if were not that close. I care and i think about whats really going to happen to us each time i take a hit of that joint, instead of having fun, im scared, terrified that my life is going to be pointless, and to me it seems like im the only one that gives a damn. I could be having fun now, but next year, i'll still wanting to have fun, im going to be changing, and now, looking at the changes of ones im surrounded with, i don't want to be, i don't want to make mistakes. I'm scared about my life, but im also scared to think whats going to become of them, what are they going to be doing a year from now when im off in college. I wish that they would know that when i say this, its not false, there lives could mean so much, there dreams could come true, and i wouldn't care so much when they smoke or joke around about life if they took some things seriously. Everyone is gong to loose a lot the rate this is going.
Most of all, I wish i could tell everyone of my friends that they are worth something, and don't have to joke around about where there from, I want to say that everything will be okay, but if that joint still sleeps in our hand/hands, its going to come hard, and its going to be a while until i/we grow up. Im going to be eighteen next year, and i hope when i graduate, i go to Africa, i want to take off a couple months and photograph,study animal life, follow the herds/families around, and when I come back, I want everyone to be happy, they should all have there own lives, and I don't want to see no one, where they are today.
Were all so much better than that.
Yes, im talking about you. All of you, in my eye.
Im scared for you and me.
For now, im enjoying life, but hating what others are going through, i want lust and love, so much that i could give up a arm for it, im ready for the fights im going to have because im so jealously in love. There are going to be two people who saw each other for a split second and know that there going to be together, they couldn't see themselves kissing another. There too young to comprehend what it's all about, how much time and care is involved. But when years have past, I still want to be able to look into that persons eyes and see the passion they once had for me for that split second, if not, its heartbreaking. You can be so madly in love, that its blinding, really.