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it's not so much dishonesty, its when you build up lies around it to make commotion. i remember when one person, felt it was necessary to make lies, to make conversation, that it led to something much greater, hate. being stuck in a situation when the fault is in someone elses hands and your standing there, innocent, but still to blame. its a horrible feeling.
and today, i was reminded of that experience.
you think you know someone well, someone to explore emotions with, someone to care for, someone to think of, someone to listen, and someone you can trust to keep a conversation or a statement to themselves. the next day, you find out, that nothing you thought, was true. i just hate the whole situation, it could be my fault, it could be our fault, or it could be your fault.
i dont have a problem with anyone at my school, i go around with a grumpy look and a puzzled face, but that doesnt symbolize i mean harm or dislike. i talk about other people, not because i dont like you, but because i can make my own judgments about you, because i dont know you. i dont want any lies to be bottled up, were all guilty, and lets leave it at that, no one to blame but our stupidity, it makes it a lot easier that way.
i wish, i could have the presence to make friends with everyone.
and today, i was reminded of that experience.
you think you know someone well, someone to explore emotions with, someone to care for, someone to think of, someone to listen, and someone you can trust to keep a conversation or a statement to themselves. the next day, you find out, that nothing you thought, was true. i just hate the whole situation, it could be my fault, it could be our fault, or it could be your fault.
i dont have a problem with anyone at my school, i go around with a grumpy look and a puzzled face, but that doesnt symbolize i mean harm or dislike. i talk about other people, not because i dont like you, but because i can make my own judgments about you, because i dont know you. i dont want any lies to be bottled up, were all guilty, and lets leave it at that, no one to blame but our stupidity, it makes it a lot easier that way.
i wish, i could have the presence to make friends with everyone.