My Journal is still here?
I have been debating for some time now wether I should delet my journal or not... I can't really write what I want to for fear of my sister reading it. And if I change my LJ name, she would find it out through one of the people on my friends list, of through the memory on my computer.
Alot of things have happened latley, alot of things I would like to write about, but can't because I feel my sister would just use it for black mail. I'm not saying she would tell... I am just saying that she would always hold it over my head.
I feel like my online life is pointless now. I feel like I have abandon so many of the people that have been there for me, even through the internet. (Gabby, Dom, Laura, Nikki...) There are alot of people I miss talking to. I wish I could start writing again, and being truthful with my writing, but I can't...
The only way I will truly be happy with this journal is being able to write what is really going on in my life. I don't like having to beat around the bush, and sorta tell the truth because I am afraide that someone will read it that I don't want to... Naming my sister.
I have so much to tell... so much to explain. My life is no longer a base of nothingness. My life has meaning, and I am finally happy.I want to be able to express and share my happiness, but it almost seems inpossiable. If anyone has any good suggestions, then please let me know asap.
Love to everyone that I have missed so dearly...
~Lee
Alot of things have happened latley, alot of things I would like to write about, but can't because I feel my sister would just use it for black mail. I'm not saying she would tell... I am just saying that she would always hold it over my head.
I feel like my online life is pointless now. I feel like I have abandon so many of the people that have been there for me, even through the internet. (Gabby, Dom, Laura, Nikki...) There are alot of people I miss talking to. I wish I could start writing again, and being truthful with my writing, but I can't...
The only way I will truly be happy with this journal is being able to write what is really going on in my life. I don't like having to beat around the bush, and sorta tell the truth because I am afraide that someone will read it that I don't want to... Naming my sister.
I have so much to tell... so much to explain. My life is no longer a base of nothingness. My life has meaning, and I am finally happy.I want to be able to express and share my happiness, but it almost seems inpossiable. If anyone has any good suggestions, then please let me know asap.
Love to everyone that I have missed so dearly...
~Lee