Real up date?
Okay... So I haven't made a real update in a while.... Long over due I guess...
Things are... very up and down, I am having my highs and my lows. They are hitting me very rapidly... I am just nervious about alot of things... It hurts to know that you have lost you're parents love. I have my friends always there with me, but when you don't have you're parents behind you, everything feels like it's sinking in, and you don't feel worth a shit anymore... My dad was talking to me, or should I say yelling at me the other week, and he said that he didn't know why I didn't have the decencey to keep the "gay thing" to myself. My answer was this... I am sick and tired... tried of the lies... tired of having to lie to people all the time about myself. He was the one that said lying was a bad thing in the first place.... So I choose not to lie, and look where it gets me... no where.... fucking no where. I tell him the truth, and I still get the same treatment as if I were to tell him the truth...... I don't know what to think anymore...
I suck at life...
Things are... very up and down, I am having my highs and my lows. They are hitting me very rapidly... I am just nervious about alot of things... It hurts to know that you have lost you're parents love. I have my friends always there with me, but when you don't have you're parents behind you, everything feels like it's sinking in, and you don't feel worth a shit anymore... My dad was talking to me, or should I say yelling at me the other week, and he said that he didn't know why I didn't have the decencey to keep the "gay thing" to myself. My answer was this... I am sick and tired... tried of the lies... tired of having to lie to people all the time about myself. He was the one that said lying was a bad thing in the first place.... So I choose not to lie, and look where it gets me... no where.... fucking no where. I tell him the truth, and I still get the same treatment as if I were to tell him the truth...... I don't know what to think anymore...
I suck at life...