justice... i think i heard of that once
life gets frustrating sometimes. i wonder where justice is and why there seems to be such a deficiency of it in the world. i wish i didn't have these questions. i wish i could just accept things but i really can't. this is me i guess.
i want to be great at something. i hate being such a mediocre person. it would be really great to know that i'm not just 'okay' at something. unfortunately for me, however, there is no area in life that i excel in. at least excel enough to not be considered mediocre. perhaps it is entirely too selfish of me to want something like that. i can't help it though. i don't mean to be so mixed up and sound so melodramatic.
my show is on friday and i really want you to come. there will be art and other bands playing. my music means a lot to me. i want to share it with people and i want them to be impacted by it. that sounds lame i know. there isn't anything overly spiritual or terrifically revolutional about my music. it expresses some of what goes on in my head though. and it's always nice to know that you aren't alone.
i realized that i lost a lot of friends. i sat down the other night and tried to count how many friends i had. after a few minutes of thinking, i gave up realizing most of my 'friends' aren't really my friends. that's not how i wanted it to end up. honest. that's just where i'm at in life right now i suppose. i'm not entirely sure what i can do with that. i need to stop because this is beginning to be dreary and i don't like that all that much. good night.
josh bandy