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I have nothing to do, so I'll write in this....
This weekend is going to be my "productive" weekend, hopefully. I have to finish 2 1/2 art projects by December 2nd. I hope I make it. I have my ideas and all but I'm starting late in the 9 weeks. I've been procrastinating, but it's just that I have no motivation to do anything. It sucks! I'm going to be working on my box this weekend, it's going to be pretty. I hope. The outside of it is a scene from Cambodia, it's a wall & a tree. I'm thinking of making the tree out of plaster, I'm not sure though. I have to talk to Ms. Underwood about it. Send me luck, please.
I miss Ashley, well...actually, I miss all my friends. I miss the ones I've lost, the ones I still have, and the ones that I never had but had a chance. I seem to get friends that always have ewwy parents. Ashley's mom is being a total bitch, and won't allow her to go anywhere or do anything. That is unless it is going to work / school. I can't believe her. She's ruining her & her daughters relationship. Ashley already says she hates her, which makes me sad because no one should hate their parents. It should be an unconditional love. But I guess I see it a different way, I have plenty of reason why I could "hate" my parents, but I don't and never will. I miss Sarah, because we never get to see each other anymore and I really want to dance with her. I miss Katums, because well...even though I see her every 5 days out of the 7, we never get to hang out outside of school. I kind of miss Liz, what we used to have; our old friendship was amazing & fun. I don't think we'll ever get that back. Our relationship is deteriorating really fast....really, really fast. I miss Kerry, because I just do. I know the real her more than a lot of people do, I know the sensative, fun girl that a lot of people just see as a party going whore. =/ It's quite sad. And KayDee, I miss her too. I know she's going through a lot now....but our friendship faded in a slow way...it's sad. I miss Adam & Martin, mainly because they're not here. Also because we used to all talk and everything, now it's like we're kind of all going our seperate ways.
I'm still nervous about school / college. I really have that "senioritis" thing now, I hate it. I just want it to be over. I'm ready to go on with life, live on my own...do my own thing. I will continue doing my artwork and I think it'll be better for me because I'll have time to do it when I want to. Not when my teacher says it needs to be done. I will get things done, it just takes me some time. I promise to myself that I'll succeed in whatever I try to do. That's a promise I'm bound not to break.
I miss Chad, but who doesn't know that?! Being that we haven't seen each other in over a month, it's beginning to feel like just an internet relationship. Of course, that's not the case...but I was thinking about it and it really is beginning to feel like it. I was trying to look for bus prices, to go visit him. Unfortunately, I had no luck, I think mainly because I'm too impatient for that stuff. I'll go downtown sometime and figure it out. It's in the range from 50-60 dollars. I probably don't have that and I am not sure if it really is worth going because he'll work anyway. I guess I'll just have to see. I really hope he gets a car before New Years, because I really want to be with him then. I'll finally get my kiss when the ball drops. I think that if he can't come here, I'll definitely go there.
I need to start driving, too. I think that's all I need to say about that one.
I guess I'm going to go though, because I can't think of anything else to say. If I do, I'll bring it up in the next entry.
<3 Adrienne
ps - Jess, you're beautiful & I love you.!
This weekend is going to be my "productive" weekend, hopefully. I have to finish 2 1/2 art projects by December 2nd. I hope I make it. I have my ideas and all but I'm starting late in the 9 weeks. I've been procrastinating, but it's just that I have no motivation to do anything. It sucks! I'm going to be working on my box this weekend, it's going to be pretty. I hope. The outside of it is a scene from Cambodia, it's a wall & a tree. I'm thinking of making the tree out of plaster, I'm not sure though. I have to talk to Ms. Underwood about it. Send me luck, please.
I miss Ashley, well...actually, I miss all my friends. I miss the ones I've lost, the ones I still have, and the ones that I never had but had a chance. I seem to get friends that always have ewwy parents. Ashley's mom is being a total bitch, and won't allow her to go anywhere or do anything. That is unless it is going to work / school. I can't believe her. She's ruining her & her daughters relationship. Ashley already says she hates her, which makes me sad because no one should hate their parents. It should be an unconditional love. But I guess I see it a different way, I have plenty of reason why I could "hate" my parents, but I don't and never will. I miss Sarah, because we never get to see each other anymore and I really want to dance with her. I miss Katums, because well...even though I see her every 5 days out of the 7, we never get to hang out outside of school. I kind of miss Liz, what we used to have; our old friendship was amazing & fun. I don't think we'll ever get that back. Our relationship is deteriorating really fast....really, really fast. I miss Kerry, because I just do. I know the real her more than a lot of people do, I know the sensative, fun girl that a lot of people just see as a party going whore. =/ It's quite sad. And KayDee, I miss her too. I know she's going through a lot now....but our friendship faded in a slow way...it's sad. I miss Adam & Martin, mainly because they're not here. Also because we used to all talk and everything, now it's like we're kind of all going our seperate ways.
I'm still nervous about school / college. I really have that "senioritis" thing now, I hate it. I just want it to be over. I'm ready to go on with life, live on my own...do my own thing. I will continue doing my artwork and I think it'll be better for me because I'll have time to do it when I want to. Not when my teacher says it needs to be done. I will get things done, it just takes me some time. I promise to myself that I'll succeed in whatever I try to do. That's a promise I'm bound not to break.
I miss Chad, but who doesn't know that?! Being that we haven't seen each other in over a month, it's beginning to feel like just an internet relationship. Of course, that's not the case...but I was thinking about it and it really is beginning to feel like it. I was trying to look for bus prices, to go visit him. Unfortunately, I had no luck, I think mainly because I'm too impatient for that stuff. I'll go downtown sometime and figure it out. It's in the range from 50-60 dollars. I probably don't have that and I am not sure if it really is worth going because he'll work anyway. I guess I'll just have to see. I really hope he gets a car before New Years, because I really want to be with him then. I'll finally get my kiss when the ball drops. I think that if he can't come here, I'll definitely go there.
I need to start driving, too. I think that's all I need to say about that one.
I guess I'm going to go though, because I can't think of anything else to say. If I do, I'll bring it up in the next entry.
<3 Adrienne
ps - Jess, you're beautiful & I love you.!