update.
Ah, new journal.
I don't really know what to say right now. Life is going by so fast & so many things have changed. I barely talk to anyone anymore, in person or online. It seems as though I get up in the morning, and by the time I really awake, it's time to go back to bed and start over. I've been hanging out with Ashley a lot. I love her to death, she's an amazing friend. She brings the kid out of me, and I really enjoy that. She and Adam are keeping me going lately. Also, receiving Martin's letters make me happy too.
I have been stressing out about a lot of things lately, and to my amazement, it doesn't even involve family. School & friends are a big part of it. I miss hanging out with Kerry, Liz, Katums, KayDee, and Sarah. Seeing Sarah at school made me so happy, but left some sad too. It made me realize that it's getting harder to hang out with her and I hate that. We've barely hung out a lot anyway, but when we did it was amazing. She's so full of life and just being around her makes you feel like a better person. And Katums, you're amazing babe. I can't put into words how great of a person you are & how much I wish your life will always be as nice to you as you are to everyone else. KayDee, jeez....it's crazy how fast we became best friends and how fast we stopped everything. I know you've had a lot going on in your life and I know you need things that don't involve me. I would love to get together with you sometime. I'm not going to say much about Kerry because I know she doesn't read this. But I really do miss her.
And for Liz, I don't know what we are anymore. Just today Ms. Underwood (whom I confide in with my problems with Liz) asked me today "Well, are you and Liz friends this week?" How sad of a question is that? I never thought it'd come to this. At first, it was her being selfish and saying she wanted to hang out but never did. She'd always tell me lies about how busy she was when what her definition of busy was "doing Alex" Then it was the whole Chad thing. That seems to have faded some, even though she still tells me from time to time how much she hates him and wishes he'd die. And now, it's back to the same old Liz, the one that thinks she's my best friend but will never do anything with me or talk to me out of school. I will absolutely give up at the end of the year if she doesn't push herself to do anything about our relationship. I'm tired of worrying about it, and I'm tired of trying to tell her how I feel. It never sticks in her brain.
On the good note, although I flipped out about having to get my art work done on time I got a 97% A in Art V Portfolio Prep. All my classes I have check on, which would be Comm. Tech, Art Portfolio, and Government...I have an A in. Ranked number 2 in Comm Tech. I'm pretty proud of that one. I finished my colored pencil drawing and everyone loved it. They said it's my best yet. The post-it notes one turned out amazing too, I never thought it'd turn out as well as it did. And the one I did at the beginning of the year, where almost everyone has forgotten about...the canvas bag, it's in the School District art show. Also, Ms. Underwood told me that all the portfolio students will have their own spot in the Creative Affair art show this year; I'm pretty excited about that one. There are 9 more days until I see Gwen, BEP, and Dennis, and 14 more days until I am finally a legal adult. That's so scary. Believe me, I want to grow up, but it's happening too fast. I hate worrying about college too, grr!
Hmm, what's more I can say, to add to even more of this huuuuge post. ?! I missed seeing The Corpse Bride, I guess I'll just have to wait until it comes to dvd. I know I'll get it the first day it comes out. I saw "Waiting" and let me tell you, that is one of the funniest movies I've seen in I don't know how long. Of course it's going to be amazing when Dane Cook's in it. : ]
I can't wait until I get to see Chad, we really need to get together again.
I guess I'm going to go now though, if you read this...thanks bunches.!
Love, Adrienne
ps - "Sarahahahaha (5:55:09 PM) 10/27/2005: ily. you're so wise. you're like a miniature buddah. with mouth piercings" Ah, she speaks the truth. ily Miss Sarah.!
I don't really know what to say right now. Life is going by so fast & so many things have changed. I barely talk to anyone anymore, in person or online. It seems as though I get up in the morning, and by the time I really awake, it's time to go back to bed and start over. I've been hanging out with Ashley a lot. I love her to death, she's an amazing friend. She brings the kid out of me, and I really enjoy that. She and Adam are keeping me going lately. Also, receiving Martin's letters make me happy too.
I have been stressing out about a lot of things lately, and to my amazement, it doesn't even involve family. School & friends are a big part of it. I miss hanging out with Kerry, Liz, Katums, KayDee, and Sarah. Seeing Sarah at school made me so happy, but left some sad too. It made me realize that it's getting harder to hang out with her and I hate that. We've barely hung out a lot anyway, but when we did it was amazing. She's so full of life and just being around her makes you feel like a better person. And Katums, you're amazing babe. I can't put into words how great of a person you are & how much I wish your life will always be as nice to you as you are to everyone else. KayDee, jeez....it's crazy how fast we became best friends and how fast we stopped everything. I know you've had a lot going on in your life and I know you need things that don't involve me. I would love to get together with you sometime. I'm not going to say much about Kerry because I know she doesn't read this. But I really do miss her.
And for Liz, I don't know what we are anymore. Just today Ms. Underwood (whom I confide in with my problems with Liz) asked me today "Well, are you and Liz friends this week?" How sad of a question is that? I never thought it'd come to this. At first, it was her being selfish and saying she wanted to hang out but never did. She'd always tell me lies about how busy she was when what her definition of busy was "doing Alex" Then it was the whole Chad thing. That seems to have faded some, even though she still tells me from time to time how much she hates him and wishes he'd die. And now, it's back to the same old Liz, the one that thinks she's my best friend but will never do anything with me or talk to me out of school. I will absolutely give up at the end of the year if she doesn't push herself to do anything about our relationship. I'm tired of worrying about it, and I'm tired of trying to tell her how I feel. It never sticks in her brain.
On the good note, although I flipped out about having to get my art work done on time I got a 97% A in Art V Portfolio Prep. All my classes I have check on, which would be Comm. Tech, Art Portfolio, and Government...I have an A in. Ranked number 2 in Comm Tech. I'm pretty proud of that one. I finished my colored pencil drawing and everyone loved it. They said it's my best yet. The post-it notes one turned out amazing too, I never thought it'd turn out as well as it did. And the one I did at the beginning of the year, where almost everyone has forgotten about...the canvas bag, it's in the School District art show. Also, Ms. Underwood told me that all the portfolio students will have their own spot in the Creative Affair art show this year; I'm pretty excited about that one. There are 9 more days until I see Gwen, BEP, and Dennis, and 14 more days until I am finally a legal adult. That's so scary. Believe me, I want to grow up, but it's happening too fast. I hate worrying about college too, grr!
Hmm, what's more I can say, to add to even more of this huuuuge post. ?! I missed seeing The Corpse Bride, I guess I'll just have to wait until it comes to dvd. I know I'll get it the first day it comes out. I saw "Waiting" and let me tell you, that is one of the funniest movies I've seen in I don't know how long. Of course it's going to be amazing when Dane Cook's in it. : ]
I can't wait until I get to see Chad, we really need to get together again.
I guess I'm going to go now though, if you read this...thanks bunches.!
Love, Adrienne
ps - "Sarahahahaha (5:55:09 PM) 10/27/2005: ily. you're so wise. you're like a miniature buddah. with mouth piercings" Ah, she speaks the truth. ily Miss Sarah.!