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I'm looking through my entries in here and its so pathetic... the only time I have ever written something truly happy was when I was with James. Do you know what this says to me??? I'm not as independent as I have blinded my self into thinking I am. I need someone to make me happy... I am always dependent on one person being there for me to make me happy. And that same person is also the one who always ends up hurting me the most. Why do I have to fall so damn hard? I dont understand. My heart NEVER truly fixes itself and I never actually get over someone I love! And why does loving come so easliy to me but yet everyone else can just throw me away!?!?!?! Ugh I dont know........... leave me something to uplift my spirits. I wish I could talk to that one person I need, right now!! Blah kill me