burst right on the scene like a plaguing disease
Well yet again i have left sufficient time i think to explain my shit.
let me see... where to start....well the last week of school has been a TOTAL and i mean TOTAL waste of time. i spent ruffly two WHOLE HOURS there this week, missing every lesson i had. man i have gote to dig myself out of here. this hole is nearly consuming me. i figure i have three weeks to complete my art (FUCK!!!!) but what lies beyond the next couple of months no longer scares and unnerves me as much. i figure i need a b in media and a d in art. they want the equivelant of two c's at swansea so mix and matching is all good.
well then, i haven't really accomplished much o0f any great value in the last week which is highly dissapointing, although if you count running yourself into the ground as an accomplishment then man have i done loads. ive hardly slpet in the last week, hardly eaten anything of substantial nourishment for even longer. life is sucking at the mo i just need to find a foothole to stablize myself. on saturday i fainted in the shower and couldnt stand for 15 minutes, i did get time off work for it to recover tho.
Talkin of work, im gonna leave the garage soon, saturdays are no longer my own and in my current mental and physical state i aint gonna be able to keep it going, what with the mountain of work and the such.
i dont like the manner in which life is conducted in coychurch anyway. its a land of "wannabe upper class engilsh people" which is rather sad really when they are smelly old middle class welsh people (of breeding apparently) who havent washed in a decade (really) and enjoy flirting with 17 year old highly impressionable young girls such as charlotte, making her believe like they do that some how she is above everyone else. no offence to her but she is a rather un attractive snooty cow.
well i finally saw BCSL play with the new line up, was good, but over time im sure things will develop to better than ever. nina's party was fun although i am extremely gutted that on that night of all nights i wasnt there when hannah needed me the most. i have been feeling guilty about it all day. it seems as though my despair is spreading amongst those closest to me and i really hate my screwed up emotions for it. i bought kalms to try and ease my frustration and tgryed dying my hair purple but its just gone black. i need lightener first me thinks.
That is all for now ppl
I could walk for eternity seeking the meaning of life, but one look into your eyes and the world makes crystal clear sense (CJL about five seconds ago)
xxx
let me see... where to start....well the last week of school has been a TOTAL and i mean TOTAL waste of time. i spent ruffly two WHOLE HOURS there this week, missing every lesson i had. man i have gote to dig myself out of here. this hole is nearly consuming me. i figure i have three weeks to complete my art (FUCK!!!!) but what lies beyond the next couple of months no longer scares and unnerves me as much. i figure i need a b in media and a d in art. they want the equivelant of two c's at swansea so mix and matching is all good.
well then, i haven't really accomplished much o0f any great value in the last week which is highly dissapointing, although if you count running yourself into the ground as an accomplishment then man have i done loads. ive hardly slpet in the last week, hardly eaten anything of substantial nourishment for even longer. life is sucking at the mo i just need to find a foothole to stablize myself. on saturday i fainted in the shower and couldnt stand for 15 minutes, i did get time off work for it to recover tho.
Talkin of work, im gonna leave the garage soon, saturdays are no longer my own and in my current mental and physical state i aint gonna be able to keep it going, what with the mountain of work and the such.
i dont like the manner in which life is conducted in coychurch anyway. its a land of "wannabe upper class engilsh people" which is rather sad really when they are smelly old middle class welsh people (of breeding apparently) who havent washed in a decade (really) and enjoy flirting with 17 year old highly impressionable young girls such as charlotte, making her believe like they do that some how she is above everyone else. no offence to her but she is a rather un attractive snooty cow.
well i finally saw BCSL play with the new line up, was good, but over time im sure things will develop to better than ever. nina's party was fun although i am extremely gutted that on that night of all nights i wasnt there when hannah needed me the most. i have been feeling guilty about it all day. it seems as though my despair is spreading amongst those closest to me and i really hate my screwed up emotions for it. i bought kalms to try and ease my frustration and tgryed dying my hair purple but its just gone black. i need lightener first me thinks.
That is all for now ppl
I could walk for eternity seeking the meaning of life, but one look into your eyes and the world makes crystal clear sense (CJL about five seconds ago)
xxx