The Boundaries Of Language I Quietly Cursed
Oh, man. From this day forth, that was the best day of my life so far. The test took the whole morning, but only because they wouldn't let us leave till everyone was done. It was really easy. Then I decided, what's the point of going to my afternoon classes? Chris tried to convince me otherwise, but I was stubborn. Toni, Holly, and Justin ended up skipping, too.
So we decided to go outside in order to not get caught. And it was lovely. Summer weather- sunny and hot with just a little breeze. We ended up collapsed on the grass. I curled up next to Chris and nearly fell asleep on his chest. Most of the time was spent saying "Holly, shut up! Justin, go to sleep!" They were cuddling together, too, but they kept giggling and making out and being annoying. I spent most of my time listening to Chris' heartbeat while he played with my hair. We did talk a little, though. We discussed how his parents really don't approve of us because I'm younger (he'll be seventeen next month- what is it with me and seventeen year olds?) so he hasn't bothered to tell them we're back together. And he said he loved me. I'm so happy he did because I knew I was going to blurt it out sooner or later. I've loved him since that Tuesday when he held me while I cried. And the feelings have just been getting stronger. (I'm not used to falling this fast. I'd be scared, but I really do trust him.)
Around 2:30 we decide to walk over to my place because no one's home. Don't worry, we were good. Holly and Justin kept making out on my couch (we threw condoms at them at one point) and me and Chris were actually in my bedroom most of the time, but he was playing guitar and I just sat there watching him thinking, "Thank goodness he's controlled. Because I'm not."
But. Allow me to lose my mind for a minute. HE KISSED ME!
Four times. First time was the sweetest, of course. We were on the couch and Toni was across the room and Justin and Holly were in the next room fooling around, so we were all giggling at them. I was snuggled up beside him and I leaned up to kiss his neck and he whispered in my ear, "How about we go for the lips for once?" Situations like that are good for me, I can be impulsive and not think so I can actually go through with things. So we kissed. And then after checking to make sure there wasn't anything too heavy going on in the next room, he kissed me again. And then we were in the other room and he whispered in my ear he loved me and kissed me again! And then once more before he got on his bus.
Of course, I was on cloud nine. And I had to babysit. So the mother picks me up and I'm trying to listen to instructions, but mostly just staring out the window. When I looked in the mirror later I realized the stupid blush and feverish feeling wasn't actually because of that, it was because I got sunburnt… but it was worth it. Best afternoon ever.
Even better, I told my dad they'd been over and he said he didn't care. Then he told my mom and she said "no boys in the house without supervision". So my dad basically tells me that and adds, "But I won't be home till seven tomorrow." So Chris will probably be over, and I think Toni and Holly because we're sleeping over at Toni's tomorrow. And going to the mall on Saturday. I'm probably getting my ears pierced a second time, Holly for her second/first time (they grew over) and Toni for her first time. And then, since I have the whole day to myself, Chris might be around… who knows. But not just us. I trust him, I just don't trust myself. I tend to get carried away in those situations. I know he could keep his head, though. He wouldn't let me do anything I'd regret.
Mom comes home on Sunday. It was a nice break… I kind of missed her, but this week has been so crazy I didn't have much time to dwell on it. I'll miss having the house to myself so much!
This whole day feels like a dream… I barely remember some parts of it. All of the kisses have just kind of blurred together and I can't really remember how any of them felt. Hmm, guess I'll just have to kiss him again. I wonder how many times we'll be told to get a room tomorrow?
So we decided to go outside in order to not get caught. And it was lovely. Summer weather- sunny and hot with just a little breeze. We ended up collapsed on the grass. I curled up next to Chris and nearly fell asleep on his chest. Most of the time was spent saying "Holly, shut up! Justin, go to sleep!" They were cuddling together, too, but they kept giggling and making out and being annoying. I spent most of my time listening to Chris' heartbeat while he played with my hair. We did talk a little, though. We discussed how his parents really don't approve of us because I'm younger (he'll be seventeen next month- what is it with me and seventeen year olds?) so he hasn't bothered to tell them we're back together. And he said he loved me. I'm so happy he did because I knew I was going to blurt it out sooner or later. I've loved him since that Tuesday when he held me while I cried. And the feelings have just been getting stronger. (I'm not used to falling this fast. I'd be scared, but I really do trust him.)
Around 2:30 we decide to walk over to my place because no one's home. Don't worry, we were good. Holly and Justin kept making out on my couch (we threw condoms at them at one point) and me and Chris were actually in my bedroom most of the time, but he was playing guitar and I just sat there watching him thinking, "Thank goodness he's controlled. Because I'm not."
But. Allow me to lose my mind for a minute. HE KISSED ME!
Four times. First time was the sweetest, of course. We were on the couch and Toni was across the room and Justin and Holly were in the next room fooling around, so we were all giggling at them. I was snuggled up beside him and I leaned up to kiss his neck and he whispered in my ear, "How about we go for the lips for once?" Situations like that are good for me, I can be impulsive and not think so I can actually go through with things. So we kissed. And then after checking to make sure there wasn't anything too heavy going on in the next room, he kissed me again. And then we were in the other room and he whispered in my ear he loved me and kissed me again! And then once more before he got on his bus.
Of course, I was on cloud nine. And I had to babysit. So the mother picks me up and I'm trying to listen to instructions, but mostly just staring out the window. When I looked in the mirror later I realized the stupid blush and feverish feeling wasn't actually because of that, it was because I got sunburnt… but it was worth it. Best afternoon ever.
Even better, I told my dad they'd been over and he said he didn't care. Then he told my mom and she said "no boys in the house without supervision". So my dad basically tells me that and adds, "But I won't be home till seven tomorrow." So Chris will probably be over, and I think Toni and Holly because we're sleeping over at Toni's tomorrow. And going to the mall on Saturday. I'm probably getting my ears pierced a second time, Holly for her second/first time (they grew over) and Toni for her first time. And then, since I have the whole day to myself, Chris might be around… who knows. But not just us. I trust him, I just don't trust myself. I tend to get carried away in those situations. I know he could keep his head, though. He wouldn't let me do anything I'd regret.
Mom comes home on Sunday. It was a nice break… I kind of missed her, but this week has been so crazy I didn't have much time to dwell on it. I'll miss having the house to myself so much!
This whole day feels like a dream… I barely remember some parts of it. All of the kisses have just kind of blurred together and I can't really remember how any of them felt. Hmm, guess I'll just have to kiss him again. I wonder how many times we'll be told to get a room tomorrow?