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Have been texting Martin... one of Lea's mates that she wants to set me up with. I've never met the guy! I don't think anything will happen though, and this may sound really shallow, but it's because of his name. Same as my dad's. I don't think I could actually do it. I don't know why, but something tells me that it's wrong. Thing is... how can I tell anyone? It's me being selfish... no one would understand... even I don't.
Really miss Dad... wish he was still here, alive and kicking, but that's not going to happen. Obviously his time was up. Just seems unfair... that's all...
The whole God thing is hard. I don't know what He wants me to do. Where am I supposed to be going? What am I supposed to be doing? Going to church and reading the Bible almost daily does not make me a Christian... I'm just a reject... throw me on the pile and forget about me...
Really miss Dad... wish he was still here, alive and kicking, but that's not going to happen. Obviously his time was up. Just seems unfair... that's all...
The whole God thing is hard. I don't know what He wants me to do. Where am I supposed to be going? What am I supposed to be doing? Going to church and reading the Bible almost daily does not make me a Christian... I'm just a reject... throw me on the pile and forget about me...