..am I suppose to be happy!? When all I ever wanted, comes with a price..
*Its time to let it go*
..so much on my mind.
me && jimmy are done. like really this time. no im not over it.
ii don't even know what happened. but it ended soo bad.
i had a restraining order against him, wtf..he was my life now we are nothing...i just dont understand how this happens.
IM SOBER!! ii know i barelii believe it. but its true. Im on probation so i only smoke like once a month, and ive been off the roxies...i woulda never thought i could do that,
IM PASSING COLLEGE!! again something i wouldnt have expected..and for a while i was actually doing really bad, but i sucked it up and did all my homework, got a 94 on a fuckin midterm, without cheating, shit im like changing,, haha.
Things are just a little hectic i guess. Im not used to so much change. I miss being so in love, with the one person i wanted to spend the rest of my life with, i miss what we had, i miss his smile, i miss him.
ii guess im just having a little bit harder of a time moving on then i thought i was. I thought i was ok, i thought it was cool, i thought i was over him, but i was just over the bullshit, the games, the lies, the mistrust....the bullshit, I was not, and will never be over him. Ive accepted that, and i guess im just gunna have to live with that. I knew that though. I knew from the VERY beginning, once i gave him my heart, he would always be my weakness, && that he always will be, The sad part is he has no fuckin idea what he means to me, none, not even a little. I wish he just knew...
*I love you, I hate you, I miss you*
..so much on my mind.
me && jimmy are done. like really this time. no im not over it.
ii don't even know what happened. but it ended soo bad.
i had a restraining order against him, wtf..he was my life now we are nothing...i just dont understand how this happens.
IM SOBER!! ii know i barelii believe it. but its true. Im on probation so i only smoke like once a month, and ive been off the roxies...i woulda never thought i could do that,
IM PASSING COLLEGE!! again something i wouldnt have expected..and for a while i was actually doing really bad, but i sucked it up and did all my homework, got a 94 on a fuckin midterm, without cheating, shit im like changing,, haha.
Things are just a little hectic i guess. Im not used to so much change. I miss being so in love, with the one person i wanted to spend the rest of my life with, i miss what we had, i miss his smile, i miss him.
ii guess im just having a little bit harder of a time moving on then i thought i was. I thought i was ok, i thought it was cool, i thought i was over him, but i was just over the bullshit, the games, the lies, the mistrust....the bullshit, I was not, and will never be over him. Ive accepted that, and i guess im just gunna have to live with that. I knew that though. I knew from the VERY beginning, once i gave him my heart, he would always be my weakness, && that he always will be, The sad part is he has no fuckin idea what he means to me, none, not even a little. I wish he just knew...
*I love you, I hate you, I miss you*