it's better to rush upon this blade than give into the fear in your heart
the last couple days have basically sucked but a couple things have really cheered me up and helped me get through them. first and foremost, i found out the taking back sunday/fall out boy concert was sold out, which completely shattered me. so i decided to call House of Blues to see if they were planning to release a few tickets before the concert since they do that sometimes. turns out, right before i called, they had just released 30 and about 10 were left. i bought one right then over the phone; i ended up paying twice as much (because of retarded covienience charges and processing fees and other extra miscellaneous fees) so it came out to $30 instead of $15 but that's ok.
Oct. 15 >> Senses Fail, Silverstein, Name Taken, Madison
Oct. 30 >> Taking Back Sunday, Fall Out Boy, Matchbook Romance
Nov. 16 >> The Starting Line, Yellowcard
Nov. 17 >> Coheed & Cambria, Underoath
there is this junior varsity cheerleader in my clothing class, i believe her name is jennifer. we started walking to class together a week or so ago and afterwards, i began walking her to her next class since i had lunch anyways. well, as of a couple days ago, we basically started holding hands while we walked together. this went on for about 2-3 days. i really don't know how we started doing that, nor how it ended. i heard from a friend of a friend that she said she could "see herself going out with me..." as much as that would normally excite me, hearing this really didn't move me because i'm not looking to get into a relationship now unless its with brittany since i have come to accept the fact that she is the only one who i want to be with.
speaking of brittany, her and i went through an awkward phase of not even looking at each other--let alone speaking--for a few days. it really sucked and i hated it so i decided to take things into my own hands. i wrote a note to her today in class and she wrote me back, so we ended up passing notes back and forth. we basically talked about how awkard it has been but at least we were speaking again, although it was just through notes. we still walked to our next class in silence and that was still bothering me. i longed to hear her voice so i called her tonight and we talked for a good while. we got into a petty argument in the end but it was really nice finally being able to talk to her. like i said earlier, certain things have helped me get through the last couple of shitty days--one of the main things was finding out that brittany still wears the ring that i asked her out with...
you stand by your grudges, i stand by my regrets
but still we continue to walk side by side
determined to drown in the silence of our longing hearts
Oct. 15 >> Senses Fail, Silverstein, Name Taken, Madison
Oct. 30 >> Taking Back Sunday, Fall Out Boy, Matchbook Romance
Nov. 16 >> The Starting Line, Yellowcard
Nov. 17 >> Coheed & Cambria, Underoath
there is this junior varsity cheerleader in my clothing class, i believe her name is jennifer. we started walking to class together a week or so ago and afterwards, i began walking her to her next class since i had lunch anyways. well, as of a couple days ago, we basically started holding hands while we walked together. this went on for about 2-3 days. i really don't know how we started doing that, nor how it ended. i heard from a friend of a friend that she said she could "see herself going out with me..." as much as that would normally excite me, hearing this really didn't move me because i'm not looking to get into a relationship now unless its with brittany since i have come to accept the fact that she is the only one who i want to be with.
speaking of brittany, her and i went through an awkward phase of not even looking at each other--let alone speaking--for a few days. it really sucked and i hated it so i decided to take things into my own hands. i wrote a note to her today in class and she wrote me back, so we ended up passing notes back and forth. we basically talked about how awkard it has been but at least we were speaking again, although it was just through notes. we still walked to our next class in silence and that was still bothering me. i longed to hear her voice so i called her tonight and we talked for a good while. we got into a petty argument in the end but it was really nice finally being able to talk to her. like i said earlier, certain things have helped me get through the last couple of shitty days--one of the main things was finding out that brittany still wears the ring that i asked her out with...
you stand by your grudges, i stand by my regrets
but still we continue to walk side by side
determined to drown in the silence of our longing hearts