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I really wish i could get over things like i say i am.
if only it were as easy as saying it.
i don't know what to do...my life seems so screwed up right now..and not just bc my relationship is fucked..but bc i'm not going anywhere in life..i saying i'm trying...but i'm really not..so i guess i only have myself to blame....but it's so much easier to blame others.
should i stay in Salinas and tuff it out...or should i move back to shitty Bakersfield...but atleast have my family for emotional support...i think that's what i miss most...here..i have no one to talk to...i keep it in..and it stresses me out...i'm becoming real sick from stress...my tummy is killing me..like alot.
i don't know anymore..about anything...fuck it...i'll wait it out..i don't care about anything really..and maybe that's how it should be..that way i don't get hurt.
from now on i'm gunna start caring more about myself..if someone starts drama...i'll just take that person outta the picture..it's that easy.
if only it were as easy as saying it.
i don't know what to do...my life seems so screwed up right now..and not just bc my relationship is fucked..but bc i'm not going anywhere in life..i saying i'm trying...but i'm really not..so i guess i only have myself to blame....but it's so much easier to blame others.
should i stay in Salinas and tuff it out...or should i move back to shitty Bakersfield...but atleast have my family for emotional support...i think that's what i miss most...here..i have no one to talk to...i keep it in..and it stresses me out...i'm becoming real sick from stress...my tummy is killing me..like alot.
i don't know anymore..about anything...fuck it...i'll wait it out..i don't care about anything really..and maybe that's how it should be..that way i don't get hurt.
from now on i'm gunna start caring more about myself..if someone starts drama...i'll just take that person outta the picture..it's that easy.