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everything is coming together.
i'm not happy nor sad...just...a calm feeling.
i'm not even mad about the situation anymore..i'm kinda just over it...i guess it's me growing up..i don't like High School drama...i dont know what i want blah blah...i'm just so over it...over boys really..i just really need to focus on me...and where my life is going..bc at this point i'm not at a good one...i'm not working or going to school i'm not doing anything..and i'm not getting any younger...so i like really need to concentrate on getting a job and maybe a place with Sarah..that's what we wanted...we talked about this..and niether of us want to move back home..so we're gunna try to get a place together...yah me and Josh had talked about getting a place together but with his mind suddenly changing...i dont think that would be such a hot idea ha...and i like need to go to school too...i'm glad i'll have someone paying for that....my aunt said she'd pay for it...but i've been living here for about 4 months now and havn't seen a dime...i think they just want me to get a job to show them that i am motivated and i do want to try to do something for myself...so maybe once i get a job i can start school...i know it will be stressful..but worth it.
ok i'm extremely tired...i havn't gotten much sleep at all these last few days...and i doubt i'll get a good night sleep ha..i cant wait till Thursday...San Jose...just bc i get to see Mat and its been like over a year i think...looong time..and i get to see everyone else..and just to get outta Salinas ha...take my mind off things...it will be good.
k i should go i gotta babysit.
i doubt anyone read this whole thing,i usually dont when someones is this long ha..so i don't feel bad.
<3
i'm not happy nor sad...just...a calm feeling.
i'm not even mad about the situation anymore..i'm kinda just over it...i guess it's me growing up..i don't like High School drama...i dont know what i want blah blah...i'm just so over it...over boys really..i just really need to focus on me...and where my life is going..bc at this point i'm not at a good one...i'm not working or going to school i'm not doing anything..and i'm not getting any younger...so i like really need to concentrate on getting a job and maybe a place with Sarah..that's what we wanted...we talked about this..and niether of us want to move back home..so we're gunna try to get a place together...yah me and Josh had talked about getting a place together but with his mind suddenly changing...i dont think that would be such a hot idea ha...and i like need to go to school too...i'm glad i'll have someone paying for that....my aunt said she'd pay for it...but i've been living here for about 4 months now and havn't seen a dime...i think they just want me to get a job to show them that i am motivated and i do want to try to do something for myself...so maybe once i get a job i can start school...i know it will be stressful..but worth it.
ok i'm extremely tired...i havn't gotten much sleep at all these last few days...and i doubt i'll get a good night sleep ha..i cant wait till Thursday...San Jose...just bc i get to see Mat and its been like over a year i think...looong time..and i get to see everyone else..and just to get outta Salinas ha...take my mind off things...it will be good.
k i should go i gotta babysit.
i doubt anyone read this whole thing,i usually dont when someones is this long ha..so i don't feel bad.
<3