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I am now going to attempt to explain my current situation.
People are telling me i'm insane. which i'm sure is never good, but it doesn't carry all that much worth. in a matter of fact, everyone has always told me that.
and everyone is.
to the point where i am now scheduled to see a shrink.
...
which i am no longer totally against.
because i have realized i want to die.
because let's face it, my life isn't going anywhere.
i'm not one of those people, ya know? i don't go out and do things. when i turned 11 i stopped coming out of my room aside from going to school, and i didn't have any friends. haven’t improved all that much since then.
My dreams have always conversed what is bothering me most. Which meant my childhood was mostly plagued by teachers breaking my limbs and setting me on fire. now every night i go to bed and slip off to a world of too many pills and shiny cold guns pressed under my head.
i'm fucking scaring myself and every chance i get i break out in tears. SOMEBODY NEEDS TO FUCKING HELP ME.
...
i am going to live in a tree.
and just sit there.
and wait for Korea to bomb us.
i'd do it if it wasn't FREEZING BALLS HERE. or for the hobos. poor hobos. i don't wanna wake up to no hobo pokin me...
well, until we meet again.
People are telling me i'm insane. which i'm sure is never good, but it doesn't carry all that much worth. in a matter of fact, everyone has always told me that.
and everyone is.
to the point where i am now scheduled to see a shrink.
...
which i am no longer totally against.
because i have realized i want to die.
because let's face it, my life isn't going anywhere.
i'm not one of those people, ya know? i don't go out and do things. when i turned 11 i stopped coming out of my room aside from going to school, and i didn't have any friends. haven’t improved all that much since then.
My dreams have always conversed what is bothering me most. Which meant my childhood was mostly plagued by teachers breaking my limbs and setting me on fire. now every night i go to bed and slip off to a world of too many pills and shiny cold guns pressed under my head.
i'm fucking scaring myself and every chance i get i break out in tears. SOMEBODY NEEDS TO FUCKING HELP ME.
...
i am going to live in a tree.
and just sit there.
and wait for Korea to bomb us.
i'd do it if it wasn't FREEZING BALLS HERE. or for the hobos. poor hobos. i don't wanna wake up to no hobo pokin me...
well, until we meet again.